The Hardest YOU Hart!

XXXVII CHAPTER: SURROUNDINGS AND PULLING STRINGS

At this point of the weekend I have made my mind. I am not a hundred per cent sure about traveling to Argentina, but I guess I will do it anyway, so I am calling my friend tonight, before the bachelor/bachelorette party. Although, I am not telling anyone until the wedding date after my speech. Wish me luck!

Why am I doing it? I heard Nova is staying in the East Coast to start a construction company on her own. So, I am not planning to stay and do the same repeatedly. Do you think people change? I do. But only those who want to change. Not everybody and I have changed. I am not running away. I just discovered I love myself more and before I love her.

After I called my friend, I felt more carefree. It is like when I accepted who I really am. I suppose this is what I need to do. Moreover, I want to do it. I am happier now, and it does not have to do with the fact that I am carrying a secret, but the other part, the exciting one, the one that makes me imagine my life in different brand-new ways.

Equally marriage is legal in some countries of Latin America. Argentina is one of them, so I have nothing to be worried about. I will be okay and everything is going to be alright. Perhaps I will find someone in the future, or maybe I do not, but, it would not take my peace away from me.

THE PARTIES WERE EXTRAORDINARY. There was karaoke and a lot of funny games we played with the bride and groom. Both fathers are proud of their children, I can tell. Their eyes can speak so clear. For one side, Novak is taking Charmont to the isle, and for the other, my dad is taking Jay.

This is an event out of the common, well my family is out of this world. I cannot expect less from them nor from me.

We have a winter wonderland in our backyard already. It is going to be AWESOME!

I gave Jay a professional portable camera to record every single moment with Char. For her, there is painting equipment so they can be making art together while they travel around the world. Well, when she is on vacation of course. Otherwise she will be building skyscrapers across Europe and I hope some other places, very soon as well.

THE WEDDING DAY HAS ARRIVED and I am kind of nervous. I know it is not me getting married today, but I have a big part on the event, too. I do not want to let anyone down or even let them be disappointed on me, either.

It is a morning civil ceremony at the front garden of the house. Then we are moving to the church, and finally we are coming back for the reception. My dad has some very old cars that we are using for the event. And everyone looks stunning inside of them.

The day has the most beautiful and shining sunlight I have ever seen during winter. It is not cold, but it is not hot. With the cool weather, we can proceed with it to make the best and most of what we already have.

Nova is going to be next to me every single step of the process. She is the Best-Girl for the civil wedding and yes, we are going to switch after. She had the rings, I got the vows, the minister speaks and sooner than I expected it, here we are, going to the church. But I need to change first.

The religious part is a bit deeper, emotional and spiritual. They will have their rings blessed and some other things that prove they love one another and they are going to spend the rest of their lives together in a much profound way!

It fills my heart. My soul is so pleased and delighted with this outstanding moment. I cannot believe Geneva Waltz is alive and she did not want to come to her daughter's wedding. If my mom would be alive, she would not miss this for anything in the world. But then again, I remember she could never be compared to the type of mother my own was with me and Jay...

- I seriously do not get why people have disrespected and taken for granted something as magical as LOVE. And I do not mean only in romantic relationships, I am talking in general. Love is the most powerful force and the most complete feeling one human being can experience. With love, we are conceived, we are born, we are raised, and we interact with the rest of society. With love, we find that person, the one person we want to spend the rest of our lives with. With love, we achieve every single goal, we accomplish every single purpose, we make every single dream come true. With love, we give life and without it, we do not even live, we only exist. Today Char and Jay have proven to all of us that there is still hope for us, for those who thought love is meaningless and has not survived. Their marriage will be full with all of this, because they DO believe in LOVE. They DO practice LOVE, they share it, they create it day by day, and they feel it all the way. My mom would be so proud right now. As proud as I am! Thank you Charmont and Jay for letting us be part of your miracle of LOVE. To the Bride and the Groom everyone! -

Some tears rolled over my cheeks and I knew this was a goodbye. I want to dedicate my life to love and I am going to start by me. Jay and Char hugged me hard and tight, and that was the moment I knew. My dad stood up and came to me to hold me tight, and I could not resist anymore.

I told him about my plans, but he already knew. He found my suitcases and traveling bags inside of my closet when he was looking for a place where to put a dress he bought for me. He said he wants to throw a going away party before I leave, but there is no time for it.

I am leaving tomorrow morning, so I must say goodbye before I go to bed tonight.

He then asked me to dance, 'Sway'. The guys from 'Boys Like Girls' are performing at the reception and their cover of this one sounds amazing.

They started singing 'Two is Better than One' later, and Nova is singing with them. Why does she do this to me? She sings heavenly damn good, and the lyrics, oh the lyrics... Why should I focus on those instead of just the music? I am so cruel to myself.

Then they sing, 'Thunder', and it goes like this:

"Your voice, was the soundtrack of my summer.

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said.

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

I don't wanna ever love another. You'll always be my thunder.

So, bring on the rain.

And bring on the thunder!"

It is like one of those stories when they kiss each other under the rain, so cliché but way too romantic at the same time. Maybe, a very stereotyped couple, I do not know. The only thing I know right now is that I need something strong to drink and dissipate all the crazy ideas I have spinning inside of my head.

They all took me to the time and places where I meet love physically. Where I found pure and truly love with this fascinating girl, who is now on stage singing a very lyrical proposal. Or is it just another typical love song. Like Selena Gomez once said:

I love you like a love song baby."

And maybe love was indeed made for lyrics, music, poems, literature, cards, and letters, because none of us is going to be able to live it in person, just the brave ones.

Who knows?! Perhaps when time has passed by already we all do. At least right here and right now, life and love do not mix too well for me. Even though, I am surrounded by love everywhere I see, everywhere I go.