Near 3 in the morning, I was tired of trying to sleep and not being successful at it, so I got up and walked to the kitchen to have a cold drink. Grape juice is my recommendation when you are trying to relieve your sleep. But I did not go back to my bed afterward, because the view from the shore was extremely extraordinary. The big moon was just perfect. The starry dusky skies were asking me to come outside and appreciate the sight more and more from outdoors, with the cool breeze touching my face and making me feel alive.
This kind of connection I have with the world is thanks to my mom who always taught me to interact with my environment and to be grateful for what I have right in front of my eyes, my surroundings. I grabbed my Nikon and went out of the house to wait for the sunrise.
Loretta and I used to have moments like this, especially after she went sick, where we waited out for the dawn to set, taking pictures of the view and the horizon, with no word to say, just staying and staring.
After 5 in the morning, Jay came out with a cup of hot green tea for me. He also used to do that for me and mom. I truly missed him so much. Somehow life goes back to be the same, even without her in it.
– So, your birthday, is not over yet? –
– What do you mean? –
– Jülien has planned a whole blossoming day for us today. –
– I do not think today can beat yesterday, but I still will give him the benefit of the doubt. –
– If we do not mention the incident between Nova and that band-boy... –
– Ha-ha, brother! You are so funny. I did not remember you being this funny. Must be the presence of Charmont Waltz in your life! –
– Yeah right, sis. Blame her now! Perhaps it is her or it is just me remembering all the fun and great moments here with you guys. Did you not miss it. too? –
– YES! And honestly speaking, I must say I do miss it a lot lately. –
– But you have to admit you have had fun on your own these days as well... Am I right? –
– NOT accurately. –
– Well, you are wasting your time though! –
– And how is that possible? –
– You are not this naïve, are you? –
– Maybe I am, so enlighten me please. I will appreciate it. –
– You are crazy for someone who is obviously dying of love for you. She wants to be with you so bad, that you both are losing your minds for each other. –
– It is NOT that simple. –
– It is simple. Remember mom saying: 'Live simple, love simple'?–
– Yes! I do remember her words, but at this point of my life, it is not as quite simple as that. –
– You will never win if you never place your bet. –
– And what am I supposed to gamble? –
– YOURSELF! First and foremost, then your feelings, your thoughts, your plans, your emotions, your choices, your decisions and your actions ...For a start ...A great one! –
– It is easy to talk when you are not judging yourself in the process. –
– I am NOT judging you, sis. I am just trying to give you a tip. –
– And what about you? Are you planning to practice what you preach? –
– I AM! I am going to propose to Char this Christmas. We could get married after I graduate next Spring. –
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