FEAR . ethan dolan

one.

The sound of my alarm buzzing is the one sound I hate hearing the most. The constant buzzing just triggers some sort of hatred and fear in my mind. Hatred for school. Fear for Ethan.
Ethan Dolan has been my next door neighbor since we've been kids. It started off alright, I guess he just didn't want neighbors I guess. But as we've gotten older he's started to dislike me so much to the point that he's been physical. Usually he has someone else get physical with me though. His girlfriend, Amanda Jakes, is normally the one to actually touch me, whereas Ethan, he just uses words.
I turn over and flick off the switch for the alarm clock and proceed to groan loudly. Before I walk into my bathroom, I open my blinds and the sun glares through the window.
My room is right across from Ethan's so I usually get changed in my bathroom, unless my blinds are closed. I walked to my bathroom and got ready, brushing my hair as well as my teeth. I finally finished getting fully ready, and I walked back to my room. I saw I still had 20 minutes to spare, so I just hung out for a while. I walked over to the window and could see right into Ethan's room.
"What are you looking at, slut?" Ethan yells.
Of course he would think I was staring at him. He's a snobby stuck up bit-
"Hey, I was talking to you." Ethan says, a bit quieter but still with the same attitude.
"I'm sorry, Ethan." I say, walking away from my window and back to my bed.
I know it's pretty pathetic of me to be apologizing to someone like him, but he scares me. He literally sends chills down my back, and not in a good way. No, scratch that, it's not even like a 'scare' anymore, it's more a fear. It's as if everything happy is being sucked out of me if even his name is mentioned. The only emotion I can feel is fear itself. But I can't admit that to him, that would make matters worse. I don't want him to think he's won just yet.
After the 20 minutes had passed, I walked downstairs to my dad reading the daily newspaper with a coffee in his hands.
"You're tea is in the refrigerator, have a good day at school hun." My dad says as I walk to the fridge and hug him.
"Thank you, have a good day dad." I say, leaving out the door with my tea and my backpack.
"Hey, its the little bitch again."
Oh great, its Ethan. Ill try and act like I didnt hear him.
"Are you deaf? God damn." Ethan says, pushing me to the ground.
Well, my plan for staying low didn't seem to work out.
"I'm sorry, I didn't hear you..." I say, the fear clearly showing in my eyes.
No, you can't do that.
I immediately got up from the ground and went back to walking, seeing as if Ethan wasn't actually going to talk to me and it didn't seem like he would touch me again. I hope I'm right.
Eventually I made it to school, Ethan trailing a bit behind me. It sucked arriving at the same time as him, because that meant Amanda would be waiting and they'd both get their morning bust at me. I couldn't stand that, but it happens every morning. This is my normal.
"Hey its the little skank!" Amanda yells, pointing at me, creating a loud laughter amongst all of her friends.
I kept my head low, as usual, and headed to my locker. Man, was this gonna be a long day.
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I headed to my 2nd period, which was English. It had to be my most favorite class, I loved the writing portion of it all. Sadly, Ethan was in this class.
"Okay, class is almost over, don't forget to finish the assignment by thursday." Mr Michaels says, writing the name of the assignment on the board for students to remember.
The bell rang shortly after, and students rushed out of their desks.
"Actually, Anabelle, Ethan, I need you two to stay after for a minute."
Oh god oh god, what did I do? I have a 104% in this class.
"Yes, Mr Michaels?" I say, choking up while Ethan is next to me.
"Im going to need you to tutor Mr Dolan here, every thursday, you think you can do that?"
"I uh, I have uh... Church! Yes, church." Its true that my family is religious, but Ive never gone to thursday church in my life.
"No you don't I see you watching friends all day after school."
"Great, so you can tutor him afterall!"
"Yes, of course." I say, the fear pouring out of me.
"You didn't think you were gonna get away, did you?" Ethan whispers as we walk out the door together.
I left my class and started heading to 3rd hour.
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School had just finished and I immediately started walking home. I picked up the pace to make sure Ethan wouldn't be anywhere near me.
Eventually I arrived home in peace. I went upstairs to my room and flipped on some old tv reruns of Friends.
ring ring ring
The doorbell goes off and I jog down the carpeted stairs to see who it is, I open the door and sure enough, it's Ethan himself. My immediate reaction was to slam the door in his face, so thats what I did. But he rang the doorbell again. And again. And again.
"Did you need something or did you just come here to call me a slut?"
"I'm locked out of my house."
"And thats my problem why?"
"Can I just stay here for a little while?"
"Can't Grayson let you in?"
"He isnt home."
"Amanda! Go see what your little lady is up to."
"She just wants to fuck."
"So do you."
"Thats true, but not right now."
"Whatever."
"Just let me in."
He gave me that look, ya know? The look he gives when he's about to hurt me. Yet, he never hurt me? Huh.
I opened the door widely and let him in. He walks upstairs to my room and I follow him up.
I would tell him no but, ya know, I have the whole fear and all.
"Friends, I like it."
"Uh, yeah.." I say, not sure how to respond
"Whats got you so jittery?"
Hmm, I wonder what it could be, Ethan.
"Nothing, I'm totally okay." I say, trying to calm down
"Yeah, okay, I can literally see you shaking."
"How long are you going to be here, Ethan?"
"Why do you want me gone so bad? Am I that bad to be around?"
"I'm sure you wouldn't be if you didn't scare me so much." I say
Oh shit. I didn't mean to say that outloud.
"Wait what? I scare you?"
I hate to admit it, but yes you do Ethan Dolan. You scare the living shit out of me. Every. Single. Day.

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hey guys! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of fear!! Im not sure how often i will update but it shouldnt be too far apart! I will probably post another chapter sometime this week!

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