FEAR . ethan dolan

twenty-five

It's not like you wanted this. Not at all. You sat, able-bodied at the counter not noticing the horrible things happening to some people. The way people were thrown around like garbage, it became oblivious to you. Parker walked over and handed you another cup, which you accepted without hesitation. A month ago you would've declined the offer, no doubt. Hell, you wouldn't have even come to this party. You'd be at home watching reruns of friends or some hallmark movie. But things change. People change. 

You sighed as you chugged down the drink, the hard liquor burning your throat on the way down, yet somehow leaving a satisfactory feeling in your veins. You stood up, feeling the effects of the drink almost immediately. As you stumbled around you stopped when you saw Ethan. After a few long moments of staring back and forth, you finally decided to walk away. Parker ran up behind you and put her hands on your back to keep you from falling as you walked in your wedges. 

"C'mon, Anabelle. Keep walking. We can't stand here. You'll get like, second hand high or some shit." Parker pushed you down the hallway and you stopped in your tracks and turned around to look at her, 

"Why get second hand high," You stopped and grabbed one of the blunts out of someones hand and continued, "when you can get first hand high?" 

You placed it inbetween your lips and was about to begin before you felt a hand on your wrist, not Parkers, but Grayson's. "Don't do that, Anabelle. You'll be falling down the same path Ethan did and I can't watch another friend- family member- do that. " 

You stared at Grayson and nodded before walking away from the two of them and outside to get some fresh air. Somehow everytime you come outside at parties, something has to happen. Whether it be good or bad, this is always the point where you have to decide if you wanna go home or keep partying. It was inevitable, the situation of being outside at parties. 

"No! Just- Just stay away. I'm sick of you. You can't control my life. I love her, for christ's sakes. Not you!" You turn around and see Ethan yelling at Amanda, walking away from her as she follows after him. You stand up and look at Ethan, whose eyes soon meet yours and he gives you a look that shows that everything will be alright. 

"Why? How could you leave me for- for that! I can't believe you, Ethan." Amanda walks away from Ethan and passes you, she turns around and gives you a hard glare before turning back around and continuing to walk away. 

You watch as Ethan walks towards you and you sit back down, trying to comprehend what just happened. He takes a seat next to you and puts his hand on your knee, giving it a light squeeze.

"See, I have this Amanda thing all figured out." 

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Short chapter ik, but i wanted to put something out there for yall

im in school rn so updating has been difficult!

its also hoco week so especially this week is difficult

ok peace out kitty girls

xoxo kay