Trust || c.h.

Chapter 7

We all sat around a table, talking and laughing about random things. I had grown to like all of Ashton's friends in the short time I knew them. Even Michael wasn't as bad as I thought, at least when Sara was around he wasn't. I sat next to Ashton on the couch, his arm was around me shoulders and he was laughing at something Luke had said to him. I was zoned out, looking down at my arms. Today I had worn a long sleeve sweater to cover my wrists. The reason? I slipped up last night. I was scared and the darkness was closing in again. I now had fresh scars along my arms. I was ashamed of it of course but I couldn't stop myself. Literally, it was the thoughts inside of my head that controlled me. They told me to get up and find my brand new blade..I don't regret it, as much as I should I don't.

I pulled my sleeves farther down to cover part of my hands and laced my fingers through Ashton's squeezing his hand lightly. I glanced around the room finally looking at everyone that sat around us, Kayla sat on Luke's lap playing with his hair, Sara was busy talking to Michael about something, Calum was sitting on the back of the couch busy playing Fifa on the Xbox. He should really find a girlfriend.. he seemed lonely.

I looked towards Ashton, watching as his jaw moved when he talked and constantly ran his hands through his curly hair. He had faint acne scars along his cheek and faint dimples even when he wasn't smiling. I jumped as he turned towards me and caught me staring at him. 

"It's okay to stare Beautiful" He chuckled and kissed my cheek as I looked down and blushed deeply. 

"I..I wasn't staring" I stuttered, trying to stop blushing and act like a normal person. 

"I don't believe you" He pulled his arm tighter around me and kissed my temple. 

I rolled my eyes before standing, "I'm going to go get a Vitamin Water, do you want one?" Ashton shook his head and I padded into the kitchen. I opened the fridge, trying to find a orange Vitamin Water I had put in here the other day. I sighed in relief as it was right where I had left it and grabbed it, closing the fridge. I let out a tiny scream as Calum appeared behind the refrigerator door, leaning up next to the counter and arms crossed over his chest. 

"Hey Beautiful" He mimicked Ashton's voice as he said the last word, somehow causing me to shutter from it. "You know you have a really nice ass" He smirked and walked over to me, tightly wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me towards him. I dropped my drink and tried to push myself away from him. 

"Calum what the hell are you doing?" I pushed my hands against his chest, trying to get away but his grip was firm. 

"Awh, don't fight me baby. Why would you be with Ashton when you know I can treat you so much better?" He grinned, but it was the type of grin people with bad things in mind have. "I would treat you so much better" He leaned down, kissing along my neck as one of his hands ran up the side of my shirt, the other arm keeping his grip around me. 

"C-Calum get off of me. Ashton would kill you if he saw you. I want to kill you" I spoke with disgust clear in my voice.

"Come on baby, you know you like it" He kissed my collar bone, his hand running higher than welcome in my shirt. 

"Don't call me that" I stepped on his foot, hard trying to get him to let go of me. His grip loosened slightly and I took the opportunity to pull away and walk across the kitchen. "You're disgusting"

"What the shit was that for?!" He walked up to me, grabbing my wrist in his hand tightly, his knuckles turning nearly white. "Bitch, get back here" He pulled me close to him , so close our chests were touching. "I'm not done with you" 

"I'm done with you" I pulled away, ripping my wrist from his grip and instantly slapping his across the cheek so hard my hand stung afterwards. He just turned towards me now anger was clear in his eyes which honestly, I was scared. "Stay away from me" I  grabbed my Vitamin Water off the floor and turned towards the main room, trying to push the thoughts of what just happened out of my mind.