Leaving THE FOREVER |✔ #Wattys2017

Chapter- 22

Mark's POV

"Next, Ms. Jeanette west" the brunette said as I waited and my eyes searched for her. Waiting... Waiting... Waiting...
But nothing happened.

"Umm.. I guess she is not here. Why don't you take some more rest, Matt? Till then I will ask someone to look for her."

This time I didn't correct her. Just nodded in response as the nurse left. Because right now what that brunette called me did not matter and who mattered was not here.

Suddenly, I felt uncomfortable. You know that feeling when you are expecting someone but that person has not arrived and your mind is all worried with all those negative thoughts. This was exactly what was happening to me as much as I tried, I just couldn't bring myself to calm down.

Is she safe? Did I do something so wrong that she is not able to bring herself up to face me? Is the loop not yet broken? Is she dead? No, this is not possible because everyone said she was here visiting me every single day. Then, what happened now? Was everyone just lying to me about her? Or is it just that out friendship has also broken with loop?

I was thinking so much that I didn't realize, I was breathing heavily. My vision started to blur as my mind clouded. I was blacking out, AGAIN.

"JEAN, WHERE IS SHE? BRING HER TO ME RIGHT NOW!!! JEAN!! JEA..."

"Shh.. I am right here. Calm down, Mark. Think of something that makes you happy."

I hear her sweet voice as the smell of jasmine filled up the room. Slowly, I closed my eyes taking some time before I could face it all again and soon my mind drifted to the time where Jasper, Jeanette and I were sitting together. All three of us, back like those good old days. I saw, Jasper, smiling at me, that same smile which could make anyone's day brighter than the sun. And then there she was Jeanette, slowly tip-toeing, behind him as she swiftly poured a bucket full of colour on him. I could hear all of us laughing together. But then the laughter started fading into faint whispers and then falling silence.

"Mark, can you hear me?" I felt a pair of hands holding me tightly with other faint voices. The moment I sensed her, my eyes shot open.

"He is alive. No need to worry Mr. and Mrs. Geller. It was just some lose of consciousness for a short time due to weakness. He will take a day or two to get back. You all can wait outside while I check some more reports." The doctor said looking through some files while the nurse rushed everyone out. I got glimpse of Jean at the corner and my mind relaxed but what bothered me the most was the look on her face: guilt.

My brain didn't even register it as the world fell out "Wait, Jeanette we need to talk. Plus, it was your turn to visit me before all this happened."

There was a moment of cold silence as my eyes wandered towards the doctor with desperation. "Okay, I will check out his reports in my cabin. But you guys have only 10 minutes." Well, that was kinda helpful.

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We three were Alone. Me. Jeanette. Her masked guilt.

She would not dare to look into my eyes. First few moments were thick with stillness and then she asked 'How are you feeling?' For which I said 'Okay'. And all this time she was looking down at her toes.

But now I was fed up, every passing minute bought a new bad reason behind her quietness.

"Jean! Talk to me."

Silence.

"You are scaring the shit out of me. What the hell happened?" This time I couldn't stop with the cursing.

More Silence.

"DAMN IT JEANETTE. LOOK UP. SAY SOMETHING."

Silen...

No! She looked up. But the next thing was something I couldn't bear. Her eyes were all red, puffy and teary. We both had a sudden burst of emotion; mine was more of a frustrated one and her's pure sadness.

"I am sorry, Mark. I am so damn sorry for all of it. I don't know what is wrong with me?! I am the reason behind each and every bad thing that has happened till this date. I was the one who made all those clues on Jasper's Birthday, I was the one who kept his gift on the opposite side of the road. I was the reason why our relationship didn't lasted, ever. I was the reason behind the loop." with this she broke out.

"No No No Jean. You are taking it all the wrong way. It was all in our fate, you did nothing-"

I couldn't complete my sentence as she took all of it again on her. "No Mark this time you are wrong. Don't you know why you are here in this hospital? Due to some accident. NO, YOU ARE HERE BECAUSE OF ME. I was the one to die that day."

I was right. The Guilt has taken a disastrous form over her. Long gone was the girl who took everything positively.

There have been times in my life where she was the one showing me light. And now how can I let the only ray of sunshine become pitch black?

I took a deep breathe and started " Jeannette, remember the time after Jasper's death? When I had done stuff that I regret till this day but you were the one who brought me back to myself. How can you say that you are some kind of bad luck when you Are my first friend. We have always been together during all the odds in our life then how can you take all the blame on your own self this time?"

"Mark, you don't get it. It has always been life or death situation when I am the one behind all of it. I just... I just can't... I don't know..."

As far as my hand could reach the chair next to me, I pulled it near my bed. Patted on it gently, asking her to sit with me. But she didn't. Heck! She was not at all looking at me.

And I knew this was my only last chance.

"Jeanette, just answer one last question." She didn't say word. But I saw her nod or I just imagined a slight head movement.

I dragged the chair again a bit more near as she came and sat on it.

"If the situation was reversed, wouldn't you have done the same for me?"

This time she looked up. There was a soundless click in her eyes. Saying out the answer loud was not needed because we both knew it very well. With this she hugged me tight that I could feel my bones crushing but I still felt better. It showed me that the shadow that was casted on my ray of light was gone.

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The last author's note was long. I saved it yesterday but due to some wattpad glitch it all got deleted. So I have to write it again. This time it will be short.

So how was the chapter guys?

Do you wanna ask me some questions???

The thing about the story, I know it is going way lot smooth but soon u will find the twist and drama back.

-wordsbleed