Little Marks

13 - The L Word

October 19th

Cameron scooped a large amount of vanilla ice cream into a big turquoise colored bowl while I looked for toppings for our final masterpiece. We settled on whipped cream, caramel sauce - "Butterscotch for my Butterscotch" - chocolate sprinkles, and too many candied cherries to count. The two of us made a mess as we coated the frozen treat in toppings, laughing and shoving each other. We were just two children, despite the fact that we were 16 and 18 years old. Neither of us were very mature, and it was showing evidently.

"What do you want to watch Babe?" I ask, collapsing on my couch. He responded that he didn't really care, so I turned on Brave, needing my Disney fix. I think I have a problem because I seriously can't go for a while without watching something Disney without going crazy. Cameron joined me a minute later after putting everything away (because I forgot, whoops), carrying the bowl of ice cream. He handed it to me and sat in the corner of the couch, wrapping his arm around my shoulder, pulling me close. I curled into his side as the movie started, feeding him a bit before taking a bite myself.

We cuddled and watched the movie, occasionally talking at certain points. I looked up at Cameron, a slight smile on my face. His green eyes shone with a childish charm as he watched the movie, a grin etched on his face. Little dimples sunk in his cheeks and brought about a boyish charm. His red hair stood out against his pale skin, which was marked with freckles abundantly. He had a strong jawline, but still had a softness about him. His right ear had a little mark on it, a story from when he had pierced his ear when he was younger.

"What are you thinking about?" His voice brought me out of my trance.

"You." The movie was ended, the credits rolling across the screen. I turned it off and Cameron cleaned up the ice cream bowl. I gazed at him through sleepy eyes as he came back, a grin much like Papa's, tongue between his teeth. Cam picked me up and my legs wrapped around his waist, head resting in the crook of his neck. He carried me to my room and we laid down together, my body wrapping around his, leg in between his. 

Rough fingertips stroked my bare shoulder where my top fell loose. I could hear him humming a song quietly, I think it was the one we danced to at my Sweet 16. My eyes fluttered shut as he held me close. Even though I was in complete bliss at the moment, for some odd reason my mind kept fluttering back to the homework I had sitting on my desk. Italy stop it. You have a cute boy cuddling you and your mind is focused on homework of all things.

"Butterscotch could you grab me that pen?" Cam spoke quietly, bringing me out of my intrusive thoughts. I nodded and opened my eyes, letting them adjust back to the bright lighting before leaning carefully to grab the pen on the edge of my headboard, which I was assuming Cam was asking for. I handed it to him and curled back into my previous position, smiling softly, eyes shutting again. The cap opened and I heard Cam doing something, but I wasn't sure what. "Okay, take a look." His voice prompted me to open my eyes. I looked around and my eyes settled on his arm, where three little words sat. Three words that will change everything.

I love you. So much <3

I took the pen from him.

I love you too <3

The words appeared underneath the ones he wrote. "I love you so much," I whisper, small tears forming in my eyes. Cameron repeated the same words back to me before our lips connected. It was frantic but steady, lust-filled but gentle, it was everything but nothing, all at once. Soon I found Cameron over me, my fingers tangled in his hair, his hands part way up my top. He settled his hands at the bottom of my ribcage, not wanting to do anything that could make me upset. I pulled on his hair, eliciting a moan from Cameron. I felt his lips move away from mine and kiss down my jaw and neck, causing me to hum in a gentle pleasure.

"Can I leave a mark?" Cameron asked quietly, leaving gentle kisses on my bare skin.

"O-only where Dads can't see," I respond, our eyes meeting. Cam tugged gently on the hem of my top and I nodded, nervously allowing him to pull it off. I was embarrassed about the way I looked, especially because Cameron has never seen me topless before. Actually, basically, no one has seen me topless before.

"You're so beautiful," Cam says quietly, eyes glancing at my almost-bare torso. I just blush in response as his lips meet my skin again, leaving gentle kisses all over my neck and collarbones. "I-" Kiss. "Love-" Kiss. "You-" Kiss. I felt him bite down gently in the valley between my breasts, leaving his mark on my darker skin. His hands caressed my skin softly, fingers trailing up and down my sides. Cam pulled away from what he was doing and met our lips back together, love pouring out from both of our souls and colliding in the middle.

"I-I'm ready." I manage to say quietly. Cameron pulls away, green eyes wide in confusion and shock. "To, you know," I blush and look away, embarrassed. "But not today." I blurt out, my nervousness showing. Cam nods and turns my head gently to peck my lips sweetly, letting me know everything is okay. His lips are gentle against mine, comforting me with this simple gesture of love.

"I'll make sure your first time is special Butterscotch," He assures me. "I love you, and I want to make sure you'll remember your first time - our first time." His voice was sweeter than honey, and it brought wave upon wave of comfort which swept through my soul and warmed me up from the inside out. I can't believe we finally said the l word. I can't believe that I think I want to lose my virginity either. 

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