Hold Me Close

Chapter Thirty One: Bitten

-=Evan=-

I don't know what it was that managed to 180 my mindset that fast. Alex...tried to kill himself. He would rather be dead is what he told me. That broke my heart...further. He showed me he cared that much, and while I don't support his decision at all, it doesn't change what he showed. I guess I did love him afterall, even if he did wrong me. Nothing crushed me more than the moment I saw that he was hurt, nothing felt that bad, not even my own organs making the decision that tying knots would be a good new hobby, which I mean, knot tying is fun, but not that kind. (😉)

Alex had to be sedated to allow his body to recover, and I refused to leave his side, against strong requests to get back to my room. So I signed myself out, I mean, I wasn't fully recovered but I think that I will live. I held Alex's paw while he "slept," looking down at his sleeping face the entire time. Good news is, I guess, I chose to regain the habit of eating, allowing my body to consume the much needed nutrients to heal.

Looking down at Alex, a portion of me was still furious at him for what he did, but in all fairness, how did we hook up in the first place? Maybe this was some kind of test or something, I don't know.

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Late the next day Alex was finally taken off of the sedatives and should be waking up within the next hour. So when he did about thirty minutes later, we walked up to the front desk to sign him out. A different nurse was there this time, and when she looked up Alex's name I could tell there would be a problem. Right off of the bat I could tell that this rat in front of us would be a problem. And I meant rat both figuratively and literally, rat.

"He's not leaving." She said, pointing to Alex.

"Excuse me?" I asked, dumbfounded by the statement.

"Psycho tried to kill himself, he's not leaving until he sees a doctor. Or the inside of a padded room." She sneered. Jesus Christmas, who pissed in her cup of coffee.

"Even then he would rip your teeth out, so kindly go into your bathroom when you get home today, take your curling iron, and fuck yourself with it. Bye Felicia." I said, giving her a sarcastic wave and we both turned and started to walk out.

"Security!" She yelled from behind us. A bengal police officer was right by us, within earshot of our front desk conversation.

"What? They're not doing anything wrong." He said, ushering us out, repaying the nurse with the same sneering voice. Was it just me or did he give us a wink as we walked out.

"Ha! Curling iron!" Alex said as we walked out.

"I think I might have broke a record for the gayest thing I've ever said." I moaned, dragging my paws across my face.

When we got back to my dorm, I opened the door to reveal no one but us there. Everyone else must have decided to split after what happened at the hospital, and oh look, they made an attempt at cleaning up. Key word: attempt.

"God I'm tired as hell." Alex said, yawning.

"Well you know where there's a bed, go and rest. But youand I need to talk later." I said, giving him that 'I'm watching you' gesture.

While Alex was sleeping in my room, I wemt through the rest of my dormitory and actually cleaned the place, doing the leftover fishes, organizing the fridge, cleaning/replacing the sheets as well as actually making the beds. You know. Normal stuff. About three hours of sleep later, Alex made his way back to the living room and sat on the couch next to me, plopping down like a phone without a case.

"Hola." He said.

"Sleep well?" I asked in return.

"Mhm." He responded.

"Alex...we need to talk." I said, hesitating as I said it. I know that neither of us wanted to have it, but we needed to, and we might as we get it out of the way as soon as possible.

"I-I know." Alex said gloomily, sinking down into the couch and looking ashamed.

"Why did you do it?" I bluntly asked, quieter than before.

"I don't even kn-know." He said, taking a shaky breath and trying to keep his composure. "I was j-just...stupid. I can't really explain           
m-myself only that I...that I..." And that's just about when he started losing it and his words became damn-near impossible to decipher and make out.

"Alex." I said, stopping him and grabbing his head with both of my paws. "Don't ever do it again." I said, looking him dead in the eyes. He nodded. "Promise you love me?" I asked, a tear rolling down my cheek.

"You, and only you." He sniffled.

"Then prove it." I said, getting an idea.

"How?" He asked back, not quite sure what I was getting at.

"I want you to mark me." I said. He looked at me stunned.

"A-are you sure?" He asked, not quite believing what I said.

"If you love me and only me...I. I'm sure." I said, pulling my shirt over my head and tossing it onto the coffee table in front of me.

"Okay." He said, examining my body. "Wait. What's this?" He asked, pushing some of my fur aside to reveal a bite mark scar on my shoulder. Nostalgic and sad memories flooded my thoughts, causing me to freeze for a second. "Evan? Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah I am. That's someone who's not here anymore, go ahead." I said shakily. "Hold up, do the other one though." I requested. Nodding, Alex leaned forward and pressed his open jaw on my other shoulder, pressing down until he bit blood, pulling back to reveal a clean-cut fresh bite. A strange but somewhat nice feeling covered my body, if I had to name it I would say that it was giddiness. It was now written forever, only time to see. This was my mate, an idiot, but my idiot, so back off. I looked down at the bite mark Alex had created, touching it and bringing some blood up to my nose, sniffing it. Almost as if I was making sure that that had really happened. And the all-too-familiar scent of my own blood confirmed that, I in fact have been marked.

"Now let's put this ugly shit behind us. I said, pulling him up to me and kissing him deeply. Maybe some would say I'm an idiot for what I just did, but what I saw was true resentment from Alex, and that was all that I needed. Just what I needed.

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Wasn't originally planning on releasing this chapter today, just got back from a trip and I feel like shit from it, but you can all thank Echo_Thewolf for inspiring me to do it. I EARNED MY FREAKING HUG BACK!! :D (lol)