There are three deaths. The first is when the body ceases to function. The second is when the body is consigned to the grave. The third is that moment, sometime in the future, when your name is spoken for the last time.
— David Eagleman
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When we arrived at Seoul I immediately turned on my phone. No text came in.
I called her number one ring and it immediately becomes a busy tone. She blocked me.
We were inside the van, everybody was sleeping while I was checking my phone. Everybody except Yoongi.
"You look sad." Yoongi said. "I'm the one who didn't get to have a honeymoon and yet you have the long face. Something happened?"
"Yeah. I fucked up." I said.
"Wanna talk?"
"Nah. Too... intimate."
"Did you guys?"
"No. Not like that. Almost like that, but I manage to control it— wow, I just told you my problem."
"So she wasn't drunk last night?"
"She was. I just... let's stop Yoongi."
"Don't force her to talk to you. It might not do you any good."
"I know."
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I know but I didn't care. I still tried all Sunday. Five days before we leave again. Her number was unreachable.
By Monday morning, I wasn't able to control it anymore. It was a bomb that keeps ticking on my chest. An itch that I cannot scratch.
"Where are you going?" Jungkook asked.
"Jessie's company. She's back right?" I asked back.
"Yeah. I think. Jinri's back yesterday so she's probably in her office. Why?"
"I need to talk to Jaehee." I said and Jungkook suddenly furrowed his brows. "Please don't ask."
"Okay, I won't. Just don't make Noona suffer again. Good luck?" He said.
"Thanks."
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"Baek Jaehee." I told the receptionist. She was very much enthusiastic before but now she seems to control her emotion.
"She's not in." She said.
"Did she tell you to tell me she's not around or—"
"She's not really in. If you want you can—"
"Nam Jessie. Just tell Jessie I'll be going in."
"She's on DND until lunch."
"I'll wait on her office."
I immediately went for the elevator and went up to Jessie's office. Her secretary was smiling at me when I approached her.
"Who is she with?"
"Uhmmm. It's a personal meeting."
I immediately push the intercom. "Yoongi, Jessie. Let me in."
Nothing.
"Jessie... Please. I just wanna ask something. I promise I won't disturb you after that."
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Ready for Love
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