To my siblings, Ed and Henry,
I'm so proud to call you two my brothers. Yes, you annoy me sometimes but that's normal right?
We'e always been pretty close, and i hated it when me and Ed drifted appart. I couldn't stand the fact that we hardly ever talked, but things are like how they used to be. Of course we still argue but we get on so much better.
Ed, I've always looked up to you. I may not show but I do. You may not have got the best exam results in the world but you're chasing your dream, doing excatly what you've always wanted to do, and I'm so proud of you for getting into agric uni. The one thing that I hate is that we fight. Not as much as we used to but we do, I just hope you know that I could never hate you in a million years. I know that you see me a your annoying little sister, but you really are everything to me. I love remembering the times when we were younger and we got on so well; when I won the prize and a disco draw and you picking me up and spinning me round, even though you were only 7. Remember the time when you tried to help mum and dad teach me to walk? I was two and you were four, holding my favourite teddy bear in front of me in the hope that I would walk towards you. It worked, eventually. I wish you had the time to teach me things like you used to. We only ever seem to talk about randoms things or the farmers weekly, we never do the stuff we used to. I know we're a bit too old to go playing on the tractors, pretending we could drive no that you can, but I wish that you didn't work so much so we could actually do stuff together. I love you forever; you'll always be my knight in shining armour.
Henry, what can I say? I think you are probably the bossiest little brother in the history of little brothers, but I love you. I love that act that you look up to me, like 'mini mummy' as you used to call me. I love how you're not going to let your dyslexia and dyscalculia stand in the way of what you love doing. Don't forget that I will be here for you every step of the way helping you out. Even when I go off to university and Ed's flown off to Canada, just give me a ring and I'll help you. I've always wanted to have an older sister to look out for me and guide me through life, may it's because I'm a girl living with boys, I don't know, but what I do know is that I will be the older sister I haven't got. It really upsets me when I remeber how close we were this time last year, and now we can hardly talk to each other without one of us snapping. I hate that. I really truely hate that. If I could go back in time, I would make sure that I never got depression and then maybe we would be as close as we used to be. Maybe I wouldn't be the horrible big sister I am now. I still remember all the things we ever did together. The endless games of shops and mums and dads when we were little and playing teachers. Even the time when I got you to paint my nails. Never again!!! I will always love you Henry, no matter what I say, you will always be my favourite little brother.
To both of you, I'm sorry that I've turned into such a monster. I wish I could change that some way but I can't, no one can.
I know that all of my life I have been saying how much I would love to have a sister, but I wouldn't swap you two for anything in the world. I love you so much and I'm so proud to call you my brothers.
Love your darling sister Emily xxx
