To someone who changed my life,
You completely changed my life. Without you I wouldn't be here writing this. You saved my life. Friday May 11th 2012 was the day you saved my life. You stopped me from taking any more of those pills. I don't know if I'm pleased that you saved me or if I'm really angry.
I'm pleased that you did because some days, when i have good days, I don't understand why I'm so suicidal. I'm pleased that I'm still here on those days.
But at the same time I'm kinda angry that you did sae my life because I want it to be over so badly. I hate living the life that I live in my disgusting form. I just want it all to be over.
Without you my life would be so different. I would either be dead or i would be known as the girl who ended up in hospital. I guess I'm glad that you did stop me from taking so many that I ended up in hospital, but please (I know this is going to be hard for you), next time just let me die.
Love Emily xxxx
