To my ex-boyfriend,
You know you really hurt me. You were my first boyfriend, and let me tell you, I haven't had another. Part of me is scared to be hurt again but most of me knows that no boy could love me. Not after what you did to me. I really thought you were different, but I guess I was wrong. You promised me that you had nothing to do with them, but I guess you couldn't help yourself.
Even though you really hurt me, I still miss you. I haven't seen you in nearly four years. Screw that, I haven't heard anything from you in four years. That hurts you know. Knowing that someone who should have loved you can't be bothered to contact you. You know that I would, but I can't. You know i can't because you left without saying a word. I know we'd just broken up, but saying goodbye wouldn't have hurt you would it? Did those two and a bit months mean nothing to you?
I know it sounds stupid after saying that you should have contacted me or something but I still miss you. My first love.
I wish with all my heart that I knew where you are now. Not to have a go at you or anything, but to talk. Be friends. Because I miss that.
Just so you know, you'll always have a special place in my heart.
Love Emily xxxx
