To my favourite internet friend (it was really hard to choose so I've gone with the one I have known the longest)
Well what can I say? I've known you for what seems like a lifetime, but acutally it's only been 3 months.
You've been there for me when the going gets tough. When I've really needed someone to talk to, you've always been there, and just so you know, I'm always here for you.
You've been the one who's stopped me from relapsing so many time. You're the one who keeps me going. You're the one who stops me from just giving up when no one is here for me.
We've never met, I hope we do one day but the chances are pretty small, but it feels like we're best friend who have known each other for years.
All of our converstaions have only ever been typed. Nothing else, just typed. It's almost like we don't even need to hear each others voices to feel comforted by the company of one another. Because I do. I feel so alone in this world, but when I talk to you it's like there is someone out there who cares. You're millions of miles away, on a different continent, but when we talk I don't feel so alone.
I'm glad that I have been able to help you as much as you have helped me, but do you know what scares me? That there will come a day when one of us isn't here to help the other. I'm scared that everything is going to collapse and one of us will be left alone.
I promise you I'm trying my best so you don't have to be the one who is left, so please promise me you're doing the same.
Stay strong darling, we can get through this together. Don't let the monsters rule your life.
Love you lots,
Em xxxx
