WORDS UNSPOKEN ➸ BELLAMY BLAKE (2)

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After Bellamy and my little adventure I fell asleep again and he went on his trip with some others. But now I'm awake and looking for Clarke. My plan to go to Polis has to wait. There is too much going on here in Arkadia and I just realized that people need my help. But I think that I've been asleep for a long time because when I wake up and walk outside I see the rover stopping.

But what I didn't expect was a lot of people sitting in the back of it. And by how they look I can see that they didn't belong to our group at first. But I think that now they do. A smile appears on my face when I see Bellamy helping everyone out. But my smile fades away when I see how beaten up those people are.

There is blood on their bodies and bruises and they look horrible. I walk towards the rover and help some people out together with Bellamy. I look at him when everyone is out and see that he's holding a little girl against him. I smile at the sight and when he looks at me he smiles back. I now see how good he is with children. He has a sister and right now he thinks he is the worst brother ever but when I look at him holding this girl I know that he isn't what he is thinking. I knew that for a long time.

''Get Riley and the others to medbay and tell them we'll take them to their villages in the morning,'' Bellamy says. The little girl takes a boy's hand and they both follow someone. I walk towards Bellamy and quickly peck him on his lips. Then Raven comes.

''Where is it?'' she asks while she looks in the rover. I don't really know what she means by it but I also don't really care. Bellamy saved a lot of people today and I'm proud of him. I know he always thinks bad about himself but what he did today... he can't keep thinking bad about himself because that's just impossible.

''We didn't get the machine,'' Bellamy answers her question. I knew they were going away but I didn't know they were going to get a machine. I should listen to them more often when they are talking about surviving stuff.

''It didn't survive landing?'' Clarke asks.
''No. It did, but I had a choice... bring the machine home or use it to save them,'' Bellamy says while he looks at all the people he has saved. A smile appears on my face and I couldn't be more proud of him. He saved a lot of people today.

''Oh we are so screwed,'' Raven says closing her eyes and shaking her head. I don't really know what the machine they were going to get does but I think it was something important. But that doesn't mean that I'm angry at Bellamy for using it to save them. I would be angry if he did otherwise.

''We have time, but I am not sacrificing any more innocent lives,'' Bellamy says while he places his arm around my waist. I can feel by his grip that he isn't happy with their reactions. And I understand him completely.
''You just did,'' Clarke says.

''You would have done the same thing Clarke,'' I say trying to help Bellamy. He's not happy with their reactions and so am I. They should be thankful that Bellamy saved all these people. I know that we are all going to die in a few months but that doesn't mean we can leave people behind.

''I made the call, and I'll live with that,'' Bellamy says to the two girls in front of us.
''Yeah. You're not the only one who has to live with your call, as usual.''
''Well go tell them. Go tell Riley I should've left him to die,'' Bellamy says to Raven while he points at all the people he saved with his hand that isn't around my waist.

Clarke turns to Raven and asks her something I can barely hear but I can make out some words. How many of us. That is everything. And I don't really know what comes after that but that's not a problem for me since I know a little bit what this is about. Surviving. It's always about surviving so I think it's the same this time.

''No more than a hundred,'' Raven answers.
A hundred? That's how many people can survive here? That's not much. And I know that it's not me who is going to be part of those hundred. Mostly because I don't want to stand in the way of someone's happiness.