WORDS UNSPOKEN ➸ BELLAMY BLAKE (2)

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We've been walking for a while now and I can see that a lot people are getting tired. It's mostly the people that never had to do anything for six years in that bunker. But it's also Lincoln who's tired. I've been carrying him in my arms for thirty minutes now and he's getting heavy. You usually don't carry kids who are already six cause they can walk on their own but Lincoln never had to walk this long and he can't take it anymore. 

Same goes to me. I can walk this whole path on my own but it's getting boring when no one is talking. It's really quiet out here and it's getting on my nerves. It's also the fact that anything can happen right now. 

I'm walking next to Indra and she hasn't spoken a word to me yet. Neither have I. I just don't know what to say. She could have died in that pit and I didn't even say goodbye before that. I wouldn't have let it come that far but still. 

''Indra, I'm sorry,'' I say not wanting it to be silent anymore. 
I don't care what her respons will be I just want her to talk to me so that the stress will lower down. And I just want her to know that I'm sorry. 

''What for?'' 
I look at Lincoln and imagine him standing in that pit instead of Gaia. Bellamy would have done everything for his son, just like Indra would have done for her daughter. I can't blame her for wanting to kill Bellamy, cause that would have kept Gaia save. 

''For not saying goodbye when you were going into the pit. When you were going to fight for your life, or Gaia's life. You're family and I didn't even say goodbye to you.'' 
Lincoln looks at me and puts his arms around my neck when he sees that I'm starting to cry. I smile a little bit and hug him back while continuing to walk.

Indra stops walking and puts her hand on my shoulder. I stop walking as well and turn to her. 
''A warrior doesn't say goodbye, cause in their mind they will win the fight. I taught you that. I'm happy you didn't say goodbye. If you did then that would have made my death official.'' 

I've never forgotten a thing she taught me. A lot of the things I know now are because of her and I couldn't be more grateful. I sigh and smile at her before we start walking again. Not to long after that Bellamy runs up to us. He takes Lincoln from me and I swing my arms a little bit to let the blood flow in them. Lincoln is getting heavy and I don't think I could have held him any longer. 

''Echo radioed. They know we're coming,'' Bellamy says while holding Lincoln with one arm and holding my hand with his. I don't know how he manages to do that but I don't mind. 

''We have to tell Octavia. Try to convince her to turn around,'' I say. 
If we march any further we will walk right into the enemy's hands. There will be a lot of people dying because of Octavia being so stubborn. 

We walk to Octavia and Bellamy explains everything but she's not even looking at him. 
''Echo radioed. Your enemy knows you're coming. We don't need to worry about the missiles, but they're moving their weapons into position.''

''It's safe to assume that since there's only 3 realistic ways into the valley, that all 3 will be heavily defended,'' Indra says. Just by the look on Octavia's face I know that she won't turn around. I know that she doesn't care how many people die, as long as she survives to live in that valley. Sometimes I'm glad Lexa taught me so much about reading the faces of others. 

''Echo's scouting now, looking for the best way in. But since we can't go back because you burned the farm, and since we can't stop because we'll starve, we thought we should let you know that you've killed your people.''

''Bellamy,'' Indra warns him. 

''No, she should know. She should realize that all she's doing is for herself. You're not even trying to safe your own people, Octavia. We had a chance to survive in the bunker and you took that chance away. A lot of people didn't want to march and when they realized that they didn't have to go to war they were so happy. Then you took that away. A lot of people will die Octavia, and their blood will be on your hands,'' I say angry.