WORDS UNSPOKEN ➸ BELLAMY BLAKE (2)

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"We're going to get you out of there, Raven. Don't you worry."
I said it but knew that she couldn't hear it. I just wanted to convince myself that we are going to get her out of there and that we are going to make it back in time. That's just all I want.

I'm sitting behind with Murphy and Emori while Bellamy is driving with Clarke next to him. Bellamy asked me if I wanted to sit next to him but I thought that it would be better if there was someone with skills in the back of the car in case something would happen.

"Why can't I take this suit off? I'm a night blood. I can take the radiation," I say for the tenth time. But every time they say no. And it's the same again.

"You are not taking that suit off, do you understand? I don't want my wife lying dead in the back of the car," Bellamy says getting more and more frustrated. I just want to take it off. I hate this thing. I feel trapped in it. I can't breath real air and it makes me angry.

I can hear Murphy and Emori whispering to each other and I smile when I hear Murphy saying something really cute. "Your home is with me". I never thought that he would say something like that to anyone. But when I look at him and Emori I see that he really has found someone to be with.

"Bellamy, I never meant to hurt you," I hear Clarke say. I see this as my cue to jump in. I stick my head through the open glass that can separate the back and the front of the car and look at Clarke.

"Is pointing a gun at someone your way of showing that you mean no harm?" I ask her. Bellamy told me everything. That before he saved me and his sister and everyone else that Clarke had a gun pointed at him because she didn't want him to open the door. I wanted to kill her at that moment and I almost went for it but Bellamy stopped me before I could walk into Clarke her room.

"I didn't pull the trigger," Clarke says trying to defend herself. But it isn't working. Not with me. It doesn't matter if you pull the trigger or not. You just don't put a gun to my husbands head.

"I wish I had a gun that I could point at you. I would have pulled the trigger," I say. Then I pull my head away from them and close the glass and sit down next to Emori again.

She and Murphy are both looking at me with shocked looks.
"What?" I ask them while I shrug.
She just ruins everyone's life and I can't deal with that anymore. She doesn't know that about herself but she should. She should change herself and make things better instead of worse.

Suddenly the car stops driving and I sit up straight wanting to know whats happening. I wanted to open the glass again but instead I stand up to go out of the car. But before I can open the clap that keeps Murphy, Emori and me from falling out of the car someone grabs my suit and pulls me out of the car roughly. At first I thought that it was Clarke or Bellamy but when I see the persons face I know that it's definitely not one of them.

''Chit yu gaf?'' I ask him.
He is looking angry at me but also like he wants something. It makes me scared. I don't know what he will do and this is also giving us less time to save Raven. He is looking so desperate to get what he wants.

''Klirnes.''
Then he tries to take off my suit. He is ready to fight for it. But I ain't going to give it up. At first I wanted to take it off and just give it to him. He wants safety. I asked him what he wants and he told me that he wants safety. He just wants to survive this. But so do I.

''You ain't gonna find it buddy.''
Then I throw my fist against his cheek and he falls off me. I thought that he was alone but I was wrong. Because the moment that I hit him others run away from their hiding spots. I quickly stand up and I'm ready to fight.