My Fate

The Kiss

"You look like your feeling well Olivia" said the king. "I do feel much better" I said smiling back. Nicholas looked troubled, his eyebrows knitting together in frustration. We followed the king into the room and sat down with him. He offered me a cup of tea and Nicholas a cup of blood. We both refused, wanting to get to the point of this meeting. "Well I have good news for you Olivia" he said smiling. "The crowd loves you! They are very worried since you fainted. Nevertheless they love you!" Stated the king. I felt relief and fear wash over me. I didn't know what else was to come. "That means that you will have to be married soon and changed soon" said the king. I shuddered. "What? Why do I have to be changed so soon..?" Nicholas looked away his eyes turning to a dark black.
"See Olivia when you got sick it wasn't just you getting sick. We figure someone must have poisoned you" he said clearly. I shuddered again.. "what..?"
"Luckily they did a crappy job and your still alive" said the king.
"So if they approve of me, why would someone try to poison me?" Nicholas looked at me then away. I don't understand why this is making him so uncomfortable. "The majority approve of you. There are always a few rebels here and there. That is normal with every ruler to have enemies. They want to see me fall and my son. If they kill you off there is no way we can have an heir to the thrown. If that happens there would be no chance for any of them to become king" King Harold explained. "So your telling me that this person who poisoned you... is someone close..like a.." the king interrupted me, "someone who is kin and is next in line for the thrown if something happens to us. We can't just go after them either. This person has people on their side. That's why it is best to change you as fast as possible. For your safety" he said. "If I change how can I bare an heir? Can vampires become pregnant" I asked confused.
The king laughs and Nicholas got up and looked out the window. The night sky reflecting off of his face telling me that this made him uncomfortable. "The typical rumor, vampires can't bear children because we are frozen in time. Which is a lie. A human couldn't handle a pregnancy of a vampire. So it would just as dangerous for you to bare an heir without changing" he said amused.
   I looked  at the king, "how long?" " we are thinking about a week. Possibly 2" he said. I knodded. "I'd rather it be two" said Nichols. The king looked his way and nodded, "if that's what you both would like. Regardless it is going to happen." Nicholas acted guarded like he didn't want to think about marriage between us.
We said our goodbyes and Nicholas walked me back to my room. He didn't lead me or hold my hand. I wandered if the kiss we had was too much. I felt a spark, but maybe he didn't. I know the news we received was something we both didn't want to hear. I just wish he didn't push me away like I am unwanted. I hated that feeling. Since we had this kiss I feel like I know him more. I feel like a silly school girl who has a die hard crush.
We stopped at my dooor and he leaned over me. "Try not to worry" he said. "It's okay. I will travel with guards" I said. He looked at me and leaned closer again. I felt his cold lips touch mine and i melted into his arms. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want him to leave. He suddenly stopped pulled away and put his hand through his hair. "I..uh got to go." And just like that he disappeared. I walked into my room and laid on my bed.

Why do I feel this way? I should be focusing on finding a way out of this place and out of my predicament. Not falling for some prince. I'm not like this. I'm not this type of girl. I wanted to cry. What is happening to me? I turned over and got lost in thought. I played it over and over in my brain. Feeling almost at home. His smell, his coldness. I craved him. Is this what love feels like?

I fell asleep thinking about this dark haired man. When I woke I saw breakfast sitting in front of me. I ate a couple bites here and there. Kaitlin was gone and I sighed a sigh of relief. I knew she would ask about my night. I got myself dressed. I was a little excited to leave the room in hopes I would bump into Nicholas again. I had dreamt about him, his touch, everything about him. I didn't want to feel this way, but I couldn't shake this thought or feeling.
I ran down the hall looking for a room to find entertainment in. The guards weren't posted at my door as normal so I decided to handle this on my own. I found myself in a room with a piano in the middle of the floor. It led to a balcony. I could almost smell the fresh air. I desperately ran towards the balcony and tried to open the doors. I looked down and they were locked. I can't find my way to the door. Now I can't even step out for fresh air? I get a cold hand grab my wrist and pull me close. "Where are you going?" Asked Nicholas. "I just want fresh air" I smiled. He shook his head, "where are your guards?" He had a concerned look on his face. "They weren't posted at my door as usual. So I figured I would find myself something to do to entertain myself" I said. He shook his head. He pulled me close and leaned down to my face, "What would you like to do?" My heart started to thud faster. I almost blurted out 'you' but I held my tongue. He leaned down to kiss me, but then pulled away. He walked towards the piano bench and sat down. He put his hands through his hair in frustration. What did I do? I felt sad and let down.
"I'm sorry Olivia, I didn't mean to kiss you yesterday. We might be getting married, but I would rather keep it mutual" he choked out. I felt my heart drop in pieces. He didn't mean his kiss. I felt tears burst into my eyes. I decided to run. Run away from this room. Run away from this situation. I found myself in the library room. I quickly shut the door and tears sprung out of my eyes flowing down my cheeks. I laid in the couch sobbing away.
I sat up. Im not putting up with being treated like this. Like I'm not good enough.
I got up letting my feet lead the way and forgetting my brain as it screamed at me to not go in there again.