"I should be over it, but I'm not..."
the sequel of "The Smile that Was Ignored.". No promise that it will be better than before, but I just want to do it.
"You should stop thinking about that Seojin." I tried to calm myself. After talking to taehyung's members just now, some memories in my mind just came back. It should not be like that. It should stay in the corner.
Without I'm noticing, there already tears flowing on my cheeks. My hands immediate wipe it. But the tears just keep flowing no matter how fast my hands wipe it.
His smile was displayed in front of my eyes just like the projector. His last smile. His last words to me just left as an empty words.
"I have a fun time with you. Really. But After this, we can go and have fun together like before right, dad?" That is the exact words he said.
Cheon Dae hee. My 7 years old son. Even though he was not my son through blood but he was like one for me. It all began when I start doing volunteer to treat the orphans. Somehow, I immediately felt connection between us.
At that time, I already have a stable life as a doctor. That is when I decided to take care of him as my son. I am confident to give him as much love until the time arrived. I promised him.
At first we are having fun almost everyday But as a doctor I can't keep the promise forever. I hire someone to take care of him until I get back. Every time I came back home, he will always gave me his smile. I keep giving him my promise. The promise that I can't keep.
When I apologize, he just said its fine and gave me his innocent smile. Opposite from that, his eyes just show everything, sparkle of hope, with something that should not be there, loneliness. But I just ignored it cause I thought... I really thought I will have more time.
I already know what he suffer from the start. I know he don't have much time. I already know but why?! why I can't even do anything to him. What I know its already too late.
He leave me after giving me his smile. He leave me while sleeping. After that I can't forgive myself. I can't help but to regret everything. I lose myself at that time. To think that I have so much time to spent with him... I just wasted time that I can spent with him.
"Dad, I love seeing you work as a doctor. Don't stop alright." Word after word replayed in my head. I still being a doctor because of him. This is the only thing I can do for him.
When I saw Taehyung. The way he smile, it just remind me of him. After I met him, I can see how much he suffer for being alone. That fact make me wonder, is that how Dae Hee feel when I'm at work?
Its a lie if I say, Taehyung presence don't effect me. It does. I mean, after meeting Taehyung, the memories that I tried to forget keep coming back. Just like that.
Fortunately, I finally realized what I should do. I should not forget it. I should take that as a lesson. The lesson that I will never forget.
----------------------------------------------------------------- Park Jimin pov
"Okay, before we enter the dorm. Wipe all your tears. We don't want Tae to see all of us looking like this. Take a deep breath." Namjoon said with his crack voice. We just look at him for a while before following his instruction.
Its true. I don't want Tae to see our tears. Knowing him, he will care too much. He should not worry about us.
What Seojin hyung said is a really eyes opener. We don't know what will happen. We don't know how much time we have.
We can't waste any time right now. Why it take us this long to realize?
"Let's go." Namjoon said after a while and we walk together to the door. When we enter the environment is so depressing. Its dark and no sign of any human. Its... Lonely.
We continue to walk until we arrived at the living room. There he is, sleeping on the couch. We walk to his side and sit on the floor looking at him.
Its been a long time since I see him this long. We are too busy before. When we sit like this, we can clearly see how pale he is. How alone he look. How fragile he is.
I almost cry again but quickly control myself when Tae start to move and that is when he opened his eyes. When his eyes land on us he immediately in sitting position.
"You guys come back early! Wait, is this just my dream?" He said and pinching his own cheeks. It's cute but making my heart hurt. The way he think this is dream... We mess up again.
"Its not a dream, Tae. Come on, wake up and we can have fun!" Jin hyung said. I can hear his voice was shaking slightly and he try to control it. I guess, all of us are feeling the same.
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