wonderland | rosé + idols

these days ; jimin

Jimin's POV

I crashed my lips on hers and pulled down her pants. I crashed my lips back on hers, and she stopped responding

I pulled away from the kiss and asked, "What's wrong?"

"I'm sorry." She said and she moved away and faced the other side

I hugged her by the waist and she removed my hand and turned to face me

"I'm sorry, jimin. But there are just no sparks anymore." She said and my heart broke into a million pieces

"Why?"

"I'm sorry, jimin. But I'm breaking up with you, cause there are just no sparks anymore." She said and grabbed her pants and stand up. She wore it and she grabbed her shoes

"I fell in love with someone else already, and I hope you could forgive me. Goodbye, jimin." She said and left the room

That was the last time I saw her...

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Those were the days, when she was still mine. A tear unexpectedly escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it

Why am I even crying?

A bitter laughed escaped my lips as I reminisce our happy moments, when we were still new in our relationship, and when she still loves me

I wonder how she's doing today. Has she eaten yet? Is her new boyfriend treating her right? I hope he is

I grabbed my phone and typed, 'Hey, are you okay? Haven't heard of you for months.' I deleted the paragraph and I just threw my phone on the bed and I sat on the floor

I ran my hand through my hair and I rested my head on the wall

I miss you, chaeyoung

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I threw the cigarette in the trashcan and I sat on the bed. The room back then smelt like you, and now it just smells like alcohol and smoke.

Where are you chaeyoung?

I still remember when I even planned what to name our children, but I guess that's too far to reach now.

You were my light, and now it's just dark, but I accept that you already moved on with someone new.

I grabbed my phone and opened the gallery. It was full of your - our picture,

Even if we can no longer get back together. I just that someday we'll sit down together and laugh about these day.

A smile crept on my lips as I looked at our picture. You're so beautiful - so perfect. I hope he's taking care of you.. more than how i did.

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I finally got my courage to get out of the house. I should move on too, but I still can't forget about you

I thought that we would get married and have children of our own, and stupid me thinking it could still happen

I'm making illusions of us getting back together, and that's just wrong

You're in someone's arms already now, and I bet you're happy with him

I'm just the only one who's still stuck in the past, that isn't ever coming back

Sitting on a bench on a park. I rested on back on the backrest and just looked up the sky. My eyes quivering and I looked back down and saw a familiar figure

Park Chaeyoung

She sat beside me. My heart banging like stupid and I could only stare at her

"Stop staring at me like that, you look like an idiot." She said and I looked away and closed my eyes and opened them again

"So how's life?" She asked

"Fine. In the state of moving on." I said and she nodded a bit

"So how's life for you?" I asked

"Fine. My boyfriend is actually buying churos and I swear that line is goddamn long." She said and I chuckled a little

"Looking at you like this. It was just like when we first met. You were such a nerd back then; Glasses on and always on books, and always looking down." She joked and I pouted a little

"You know.. this is actually more okay, you know, us being friends." I said and she smiled and nodded

"Yeah. I mean, those guys who can't be friends with their ex are actually stupid. They're literally making themselves look weak." She said and I nodded

"I know right. Oh, by the way. You left some of your clothes in my apartment." I said

"Oh, I won't be needing that. You can just smell them." She said and I rolled my eyes playfully

"Chaeyoung." It was her boyfriend and she stands up and walked towards him

"Bye, jimin. See you again." She waved at me and I smiled and she smiled back and she hold her boyfriend's hand and rested her head on his shoulder

Even if we can't be together... i'm still glad that we got to be friends again

I guess I'll just keep loving you without you knowing it, but I won't get in between you two. You two were born for each other and I won't get in between you guys

Be happy

-END.