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regret ; hanbin

Hanbin's POV

She has been my friend ever since we were kids. I really find her cute. The way she protected me when she thought some guys were bullying me, it was really cute

She had always been there for me, the same times I was there for her. We were like glued to each other. We never get away from each other. Maybe?

She's really beautiful that I never realized I was slowly falling for her. I fell in love with my best friend. That will be the most stupid thing that you will feel

Thinking that you thought what you felt for her was just for a sister, but it was more than that. I really fell in love with her that I couldn't stop

She's too beautiful

Her laugher, her smile, her everything. She's perfect. In fact, she's too perfect for me. I want to tell her now what I feel for her, but I'm scared

What if she rejects me?

I'm scared. What if everything gets too awkward and she will throw our friendship just like that. I'm afraid that will happen

I'm scared of losing our friendship

I made a song for her. It's already finished, but I'm scared about confessing to her. This song has all the words I want to say to her

My confession to her

Imagining of her smiling face, a smile crept on my lips. Her smile, her laughter is all that gives life to me. She's the reason...why I pursue my dream of becoming a songwriter

Now, I'm a trainee at YG entertainment and I can't wait to tell her about it. I know she will he happy for me. I want to work more hard to achieve my dream. It's what she tells me everyday... to do whatever it takes to achieve what I want

Work hard for it and earn it

That's what she thought to me

"Hanbin." I heard her voice and I quickly hid the the disk in my bag. "Yo." I said and she sat down beside me on the grass

"What were you thinking about?" She asked and how I wanted to say, "You" but I couldn't. I'm scared she will find it weird and we'll be awkward to each other

"You're thinking about me right? You like me, don't you?" She says and I felt blood rushed to my cheeks, if I do have those. "No. Dream on." I said and I saw a hint of disappointment in her eyes

"Okay," She says and I cupped her cheeks and pinched it lightly. "Aigoo... why do you have such big cheeks?" I says and she pouted and removed my hand with a glare

"Yah! Why are you being upset right now? Because I don't like you? Face it; No guy will like a boyish girl like you." I said and stuck my tongue out and I suddenly heard her let out a sob

"Yah. What's wrong?" I asked as I lifted my hand, going to hold her hand, but she suddenly hit my hand and ran off from me

What's wrong with her? I always say that to her, but why is she getting hurt just now? Aisshh... I will apologize tomorrow. I'll just let her cool down for now

Later on, I walked down the streets and saw a car parked beside them and some luggage in the trunk and I saw her wiping her... tears? and she walked inside the car

Is she leaving? No. She can't

"Chaeyoung!" I shouted but the car was already driving away and I started to run as fast as I could as I screamed her name, but I tripped on my own foot and her car was getting further away till I couldn't see it anymore

Days past, I waited. I waited for days for her to come back, but no. She permanently left and I'm now here broken

All I felt was regret, pain, and sorrow. If only I confessed my feelings for her. She may have stayed or she may come back if she had for me too

But I don't have any contact with her now. She's gone for good. All I feel now is regret. The song I made for her, she won't get to listen to it

All the words I wanted to say to her, I never got to say them. The words to tell her she's beautiful, smart and all the positive things that I turned to negative when teasing her

The three words I never got to say to her, "I love you" Now, it's impossible for us. And now, pain, sorrow and regret are the only thing I can feel

Goodbye, chaeyoung