wonderland | rosé + idols

when we were young; wonwoo

kneeling down, she puts the white roses she bought on the side of the gravestone. sighing, she smiled softly as he caressed the name carved into the stone. jeon wonwoo.

tears starting to form in her eyes, she wiped the ones that have escaped her eyes. "wonwoo. . ." she sniffed, feeling the tightness on her chest, she is still aching badly. "i miss you, so much." she caressed the gravestone, falling on her back.

"i still regret. . . not being able to tell you," she whispers, biting the bottom of her lip. she still love him, so fucking much. and she wished it was just a best friend, but it wasn't. it was so much more.

"i'm in love with you,"

"chaeyoung, wake up." the guy pinched her cheek and she finally woke up from slumber. "what is it?" she whined, rubbing her eyes and the guy smiled, finding the girl cute. but as their eyes met, he looks away, cheeks starting to turn into a light shade of red.

"nothing, i just - i just- nothing!" he jumps off his seat and she furrowed her eyebrows. but as he left the room, she smiled, squealing. but she knows she has this feeling starting to grow in her.

they're friends. no, more than friends. best friends.

she smiled, remembering the memories when they were still young. so innocent, vulnerable, full of charm, and naïve. she miss those days, when all were laughter.

but she knows she can not bring back time, so she - she just sits there, crying, knowing she can never bring back time, she can't bring back him. he only exist now in their memories.

"chaeyoung, i have something to tell you." he said and she raised an eyebrow. "what is it?" she asked, swinging back and forth and the guy looked down to the grown. "i - i have a-"

"you have a what?" the girl asked and wonwoo shakes his head. "nothing. i was just messing with you," he said, lips curling into a smile, but she could it wasn't a genuine one, but she just shakes her head, having the thought that he was just messing with her.

"let's go home," he said and she nodded, jumping off the swing and ran after him.

"i should've noticed it earlier. i should've," she sniffed, wiping off her tears. if only she noticed it earlier, she would've told him she loved him first. if only she knew she was going to lose him, if only, she would've spent more time with him.

walking down the sidewalk, he averted his eyes to the park. smiling, he walks towards the swing, remembering her as she did. sitting on it, he smiled, starting to swing back and forth.

he was getting worse everyday, and everyday he makes himself ready to tell her, to say goodbye.

stage 3. he refused to get any medicine and just done a proper diet and exercised daily, but they were fails. everyone dies anyways, he thought, why would you waste money just to get better?

deciding to leave, he walks towards the exit, but noticed a little boy crying. feeling bad for him, he walks towards the little boy. "what's wrong?" he asked, kneeling down and the boy wiped his tears.

"i lost my teddy. some mean friends threw it away," the boy cried. he looked around, finding it outside.

walking out, he walks towards the door, but as he was walking, a light came and all he saw was darkness, and the faint shouts and gasp of the kids in the park.

. . .

the girl sat down on the chair, eyes still dead as she stared into nothingness. she couldn't believe what just happened, why it all had to happen as well.

"chaeyoung, are you okay?" wonwoo's sister asked her, but she shakes her head. "how will i be okay? wonwoo is gone, and i've never told him about that i really." yes, his sister knows about his feelings, and about how wonwoo feels for the girl as well.

but deciding it'd be the best if they figured it, she stays quite, and she regrets doing so.

"chaeyoung, i've got something to tell you wonwoo had never been able to tell." she said and the girl looked up to.

sitting beside her, the girl rested her right hand on chaeyoung's left thigh. "my brother. . . he have always liked you." she said and she stops for a second, "what?"

"he likes you, ever since back then, he have always liked you." and that just made all her tears pour down her cheek.

wiping her tears, she covered her mouth to avoid sobbing, but she was already failing from the start.

"what are you writing?" his sister asked, a mock visible in the tone of her voice and he smiled, cheeks turning into a light shade of red. "i like this girl, noona-"

"let me guess. . . chaeyoung?" she asked, and his eyes widened, "how did you knew noona?" she asked him and she shrugged. "it was pretty obvious," she smiled and he just smirked at his sister back.

. . .

"i'm sorry i didn't told you about it," the girl said, looking down and chaeyoung shakes her head. "don't say sorry." she says.

"here are the letters wonwoo had been meaning to send to you. it's the least i could find." she said and chaeyoung nodded her head before grabbing the box she had handed to her.

shoving her hand into her purse, she pulls out a letter.

chaeyoung, i'm in love with you. i'm really awkward, even in letters. but i hope you'll take my confession seriously.

she wipes her tears. definitely, this is going to be a lifetime regret.

end.