Need Me

Tear me to pieces, skin and bone

Jace's POV:
I waited by Alec's side, hoping that my mom would get here soon and we'd get called to the office to leave.
He's just sitting there. Lifeless almost. Dazed.
I heard the bathroom and was hoping that it would be a teacher or the principal. But no, it was Brock.
"Hey faggots what's going on?" He smiles while looking at us.
"Fuck off Brock." I protectively stand in front of Alec.
Yes, Brock is my friend but he's a total asshole.
"Oh cmon, sticking up for that? What did you do to him huh? Beat him up a bit? You should've let me join. How selfish of you." He pouts.
"I said fuck off, didn't I?" I sneer, pushing him to the door.
"Whoah whoah there buddy calm down. I just want to join in on the fun." He laughs.
"If you don't leave, I will beat you to a pulp. Understood?" I say through gritted teeth.
Like hell I will let him hurt Alec.
He rolls his eyes and walks out yelling a quick "bye fairies!".
I sigh and sit back down by Alec. He didn't look up the entire time. Honestly I'm really worried about him.
"Alec Jones and Jace Woods please report to the office." A voice said over the intercom.
"Cmon let's go." I lift Alec up and grab his hand, walking is to the office.
When we entered, I saw my mom looking at us both worriedly.
"Is he ok? What happened?" He asks as we walk outside to her car.
"He has a panic attack." I help Alec into the car and I sit beside him.
"Ok let's get you two home."
The rest of the car ride is silent.

Alec's POV:
I'm laying in Jace's bed whilst he is in the shower. He told me to get some rest.
Sleep. That's all I want. It's all I can think about. I'm so tired. But every time I close my eyes, nothing happens. I lay there. My body is in pain but not from beatings or anything. I'm just overall hurting. My head is pounding and my thoughts won't slow down.
I roll onto my side and face the wall. I don't want to be asleep but I don't want to be awake because I'll be in pain. I don't know how to explain anything. It's just- tiring.
I can't sleep and I can't eat. Well even if I wanted to eat I couldn't.
I just feel like screaming. Crying. But it'll only make things worse.
Suddenly the door opens and in comes Jace's mom.
"How are you feeling?" She asks as she sits beside my legs.
"Tired."
She pets my hair.
"Do you like stories?" She suddenly asks.
I shrug. "I like reading."
"What about being read to?"
"I've never been read to."
She suddenly gets up and grabs a book on Jace's book shelf.
"Here. Want me to read to you? That always made Jace feel better." She asks.
I get exited. She's like a mom to me, I realize. A mom I've never had.
I sit up and she sits beside me.
"Ok. This is The Perks Of Being A Wallflower." She starts to read the book.
I get really into it and I find myself laying my head on her shoulder, her arm wrapped around me and me nuzzling into her side.
Jace walks in and sees us but doesn't say anything. He crawls in next to his mom and cuddles into her.
"Dear diary..." she continues to read.
Then I fall asleep.

Jaces POV:
I start to drift off when my mom looks over at Alec and realized that he is asleep. She carefully gets up and Alec falls onto me so I lay us down and hold him to me.
My mom smiles and kisses both of our heads, turning off the light and walking out.
I sigh contently and go to sleep.

I wake up and look at my phone to see that it is 5:00 pm. Alec is sound asleep next to me.
He starts to stir and opens his eyes, looking up at me.
"Hey there." I say.
"Hi." He mumbles.
Chuckling, I sit up and Alec stretches on the bed.
"How are you?" I ask.
He sits up beside me and shrugs. "I'm fine."
My mom then enters the room before I get to say anything.
"Oh good you two are up. Dinners ready."
Alec stiffens up beside me.
"Hey, what's wrong?" I put my hand on his shoulder.
"Nothing I'm just not hungry."
I have always had this feeling that Alec didn't eat. And yes I am worried about him.
"Alec... I don't want you to ever think less of yourself. I know that I made you feel awful about yourself and I'm so sorry. But please, eat. Your beautiful Alec."
I don't know where all of this came from but it's all true.
He closes his eyes. "I'm sorry."
Sighing, he gets up and looks at me as if telling me to get up to.
So I stand and hold my hand out for him. His eyes flicker to my hand then my face. Smiling, he takes it and squeezes it gently.
We walk into the dining room and Alec takes a seat beside me.
"There you two are. I thought I was going to have to send your brother up to get you." My mom jokes.
Alec nervously fiddles with his fork and stares at his food.
I place my hand on his knee as a reassurance that I'm here.
I use my right hand to start eating and Alec takes his first, small bite.
My mom starts a conversation with my dad and my brother and sister get into and argument about the car.
Honestly, I'm glad that no one is talking to us. I don't want Alec to feel more pressure than he already is.
Alec barely ate anything. A few bites of his mashed potatoes but that's it.
After about fifteen minutes, we finish up and head back to my room.
"You can stay here tonight, if you want." I awkwardly say and scratch the back of my neck.
Honestly, I want him to stay. I want to hold him all night and I don't want him to go back to his father.
He timidly nods and I hand him some pajamas. Sweatpants and a t shirt.
He changes in the bathroom and I quickly change in my room.
He walks back in and damn. He looks hot in my clothes.
"Where do you want me to put these?" He asks, holding up his clothes.
"Oh um, here" I take them and put them in the hamper.
We sit down on the bed and I pull out my laptop. "Wanna watch a movie?"
He looks at me and smiles. "Sure."
And that's how we spent the night: cuddling and watching movie after movie.
I couldn't ask for a better night.

AN
(I love Billie Eilish)
Hey guys I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever. My phone isn't working very well and it'll shut off for days. So I most likely won't be posting until I get a new phone. This one is soooo old anyways so it's about time haha. Anyways, I'm done with school for the summer. How much longer until your out?
Love you
OH also I'm getting a tattoo woop