The Normal Project

Chapter 21-You Are One of the Most Messed Up 17 Year Olds I've Ever Met

hey hey hey.

I back from Michigan.

again.

my skin is messed up though. first bad burn in three years or something.

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"Wait what?" Alex said as his gray eyes widened. Tears trickled out of my eyes as I stared at the floor. After I didn't answer him he asked again, this time his face looking slightly stricken.

"I-I just need to go." I mumbled as I brushed my hand over my eyelashes, disturbing my sticky mascara that had started to dribble down my face ever so slowly.

"But why?" Alex asked quietly as his cloudy eyes squinted. His face looked pained and almost sad as his brows tightened and furrowed together.

"I just have to go." I breathed as tears poured down my face. I could tell that black sludge would soon be everywhere and I couldn't deal with his penetrating eyes.

"P-please just give me a minute." I mumbled as more tears poured down my already soaking cheeks. Alex took an involuntary step back as if I had just stabbed him. His face was full of grief as he took another step.

"And I thought you would always talk to me about your problems." Alex said quietly as he looked at the carpet and made his way down towards his room. As he did I ran into my room and nearly collapsed. Tears poured down my cheeks for some reason and I just couldn't stop.

The thoughts of my parents had sprung up after Adrian's visit and the rage and sadness that had bubbled inside of me for eight days finally exploded. First rage, now sadness. And when sadness was involved David and home all came with it.

I cupped my hand over my mouth to silence my unruly sobs and after gasping and spluttering for a few minutes I finally caught my breath. The stream of tears had started to slow and I walked slowly towards my open closet door. I was indeed correct that black mascara was running down my rosy cheeks and my eyes were red and puffy. To sum it up I looked like a train wreck.

Moving with utter disgust I grabbed a pack and a lighter off of my desk and shuffled over towards my balcony and shoved the door open. Before the water works could start again I shoved a cigarette between my teeth and sat back on the shiny obsidian colored black railing. As I balanced on the railing I flicked my lighter on and held it to my stoke until the red ember started to smoke.

I sucked in the smoke and felt the nice warmth inside my mouth as I let it escape out my nose. I finally blew out the last bit and went in for another drag. A few tears still lingered in my eyes but for the most part my tears were over. Thankfully.

I pulled my legs to my chest as thoughts rolled through my mind.

David and I walking on the beach, me breaking the news to him, crying a lot.

I shivered at the memory.

The next day though David got on one knee and produced a large white diamond band. Who knew that only a week later everything in my life would ruined.

I winced once more and stared out at the forest in front of me. It was beautiful, crystal waters some where over the ridges and pine covering every available space, so pretty yet so evasive-

"Evelyn you know smoking can give you lung cancer."

I snapped my neck towards my glass door and saw Tanner's large frame leaning against the jam. His hair was disheveled and his gray eyes seemed foggier and more bloodshot than usual as if he was up all night.