Detestable Love || Graylex (Grayson Dolan And Alex Aiono)

Chapter 21;

Alex speaking.

".. And then he went back inside, he was acting weird." I explained.
"Oh, maybe there was another thing bothering him already ? You did nothing wrong." Said Conor.
"Yeah I don't know, usually if something is up with him, I'll be one of the first people to know."
"True." Affirmed Sabrina. "Just wait till everyone is asleep at night and talk to him calmly."

I was about to reply when my phone rang. I took it and sighed after seeing who that is.

"Why aren't you answering ?" Asked both of them.
"Remember William ? Talked to you guys about him."
"Oh yea, answer. Maybe it's important." Suggested my girl best friend.

I looked at Conor and he nodded to approve Sabrina's point. I took a deep breath and answered, putting the call on speaker.

"Hello ?"
"Alex ! Thank you for answering."
"Of course, what's up ?"
"We really need to talk."
"If you're not calling because you need help or someone is dying, I'd rather not talk."
"What ? No no wait ! It's actually really imp-"
"Then spill."
"I need to see you."

I sighed.

"Bye William."
"Ale-"

I cancelled the call.

"I'm curious now ! Why didn't you let him finish ?" Interrogated Sabrina.
"Didn't you hear him ? He want to see me. He probably still wanna talk to me about the past."

We heard the door opening.

"We're home !" Screamed Ethan.
"In the living room !"

We heard footsteps coming toward us, Ethan and Cameron entered the room.

"How are you guys ?" Asked Cameron.
"Good ! How was lunch ?" Answered Conor.

I didn't pay attention to what they were talking about and scanned the room with my eyes. Where is Grayson ?

"He went out with James, they'll be back soon." Said Ethan like he read my mind.
"Oh.." I replied a little bit disappointed.

The Dolan siblings sat next to us and we started conversing, I was trying as hard as possible to forget about Grayson.

-

Grayson speaking.

"You guys should try to be a thing. If I didn't know you, I would be offended by you not accepting being gay. What's wrong with it ?" Asked James.
"I'm sorry buddy, that's not what I meant. It's just hard for me to admit it to myself."
"You need to get out of your comfort zone. Ask him out."
"What ? But-"
"Grayson Bailey Dolan." He said on a serious tone. Calling me by my full name is never a good sign coming from him. I really didn't mean to offend him. "You're gay, deal with it, or else you'll be sad your whole life and you'll loose the person you love."

I sighed.

"Fine. I will. But give me some time-"
"No. You have to as soon as possible. If you don't I swear I'll get mad."

I nodded. How the fuck am I gonna ask him out, or even face him ?

James dropped me home and went back to his house because he had some stuff to do. I got a message from Cameron saying that her and Ethan went shopping but that Alex is home.

I went to the backyard to find him sitting there shirtless with some glasses on, typing on his laptop. He was so into it that he didn't even notice me coming in. I just couldn't stop looking at him. He looked so handsome. I took a deep breath while James words kept repeating in my head. "Get out of your comfort zone, ask him out."

"Hi." I said in a low voice.

He turned his head toward me and smiled.

"You're back. Hi." He replied.

I came closer and sat on the chair next to him.

"What are you doing ?" I asked looking at his laptop.
"Oh, just some university work."
"Mmh."

Moment of awkward silence. He sighed and closed his laptop then faced me.

"What's up with you ?"
"Nothing." I replied, looking elsewhere.
"Lies. Did I do something wrong ?"

I finally looked at him and I could notice the pain in his eyes. I hate hurting someone I love, since I don't love a lot of people. This look doesn't help my anxiety.

"Don't be sad please. I'm not worth it. You deserve better."
"Stop saying that Grayson. You're fucking worth it."
"I'm not worth your time. I'm useless. All I did since you arrived was making you upset and sad. You deserve all happiness."

He took my hand.

"You're stronger than that. Don't let your anxiety take over you."
"I'm not strong, I just act like it."

I let go of his hand and got up.

"But you can't understand, none of you can. You and Ethan were always the popular kids that all the girls want, you both never felt what I feel everyday."
"I perfectly underst-"
"No. Alex, you're nice, sexy, handsome, you can sing, dance and is in the most important university of the country while I'm here not knowing what I am and what I want to be."

He came closer and lifted my chin with his hand. He looked at me in the eyes.

"I love you like that." He whispered.
"Wha-"

He approached his face of mine and kissed me. I of course kissed back. Did he just admit his feelings for me ? I felt really happy and anxious at the same out, I stepped back. He looked at me confused.

"What's wrong ?" He asked.
"I- I'm sorry. I really need to go."

I ran upstairs to my room and locked myself in there. I wasn't prepared for this. I'm so stupid, he will now think that I feel nothing for him.. Once again, I fucked everything up, because of how much of a mess I am. I hate being anxious, I hate my childhood. Why did all of this had to happen to me ?