I'm torn.

Chapter 2.

What the fuck. This is awkward as hell. I sat there silently, trying to get over the fact I was alone in this room with Zayn. I look through the big window & see Josh playing the drums. He gives me a quick smile & I smile back. I can tell Zayn is looking at us, I look over at him & he looks away like nothing. I go through my phone, & finally decide to go on twitter. 

I check a few of my friends' pages to see if anything was going on, but nothing big. I go back to my page, I don't have many followers, but I notice I've gained a few. I click to see who followed me & I notice all the boys have followed me...even Zayn. I don't follow them back yet, but instead I check Josh's twitter. The last thing he updated was a picture of me & him. It was this morning, my head was on his chest, I was sleeping & he was up & smiling. The caption was "Big day today & my babe won't wake up!" 

I smile to myself & mindlessly retweet it. Zayn's on his phone too, I wonder what he's looking at until I hear him scoff. I look up at him, & he has a mad expression on his face. "What?" I ask. He looked up, his eyes were bigger than usual, but he seemed...I don't know..nervous? "N-nothing." he stuttered. "Alright Zayn, whatever you say, but I've known you forever, I doubt you've changed that much." I say. "You sure seem to have changed." he mumbled under his breath. "What?" I ask, annoyed. "Just you're different." he says. I laugh sarcastically. "I'm different? Say the guy who used to be a complete dork until he joined a boy band." I say. He smirks, "I take that back, you're still the same sarcastic y/n." he says. "That's what I thought." I say.

"So what's your deal?" I ask. "What do you mean?" "Well, you're Zayn Malik, you got the girls all over you." I say, mocking him. He chuckles. "I'm still single." he says. "Whatta shock." I say. "I'm pretty shocked you're with someone." he says. "What? why?" I ask curiously. "Well you don't seem like the girl who would go out with a drummer." he says. "Well I love this drummer." I say. His expression kinda falls, but he brushes it off.

"Anyways, how's life?" he asks. "Pretty great, everything's actually going well. How about you?" I ask. "It's alright, I mean..I'm supposed to be happy, being in this band, right? I mean, I am..but it gets to be much sometimes." he says. "Well what did you expect?" I ask. "I don't know...just not this." he says, sighing. 

Maybe Zayn didn't change, I was wrong, but something about him seemed off. I don't know what, but something was weird about him, he barely even made eye contact with me. 

There was a brief silence, until I broke it. "So..haha this is awkward." I say. "Yeah.." he says. "You wanna know something y/n?" he asks. "Uh sure." I say. "I was actually planning on visiting you during this break, but I heard Josh talking about you..& I couldn't believe it." he says. "Really? How'd you know he was talking about me? I mean, it really could've been anyone." I say. "Well let's see, you're the only y/n I know in Bradford." he says, with a smile. 

"But..uh you look different." he says. "Oh.." I say, not knowing whether I should take that as a compliment or not. I guess he could tell I was confused & finally said "In a good way." he says, his cheeks getting red. "Ah, well thanks, you're not looking bad either Malik." I say. He grins & says "Thanks." 

I look up at the window to see Josh looking at me, he looked jealous, I don't understand why though. I mean..I was just talking to Zayn, it's not like we had feelings for each other anymore. I smile at him & he relaxes a bit, & smiles back. Zayn & I catch up a bit, honestly, he's the same. He's stil lthe same dork I was best friends with. We were laughing & then the door opened & Josh walked in. "Ah babe." he says before hugging me. He kisses me lightly, but it wasn't the usual quick kiss, it was pretty long, 

I know what Josh is doing. He's trying to show Zayn I'm his, honestly it doesn't bother me though, I know Zayn doesn't like me anymore, he's Zayn Malik, He can have pretty much any girl he wanted. Zayn walked out of the room & headed towards the bathroom.