I'm torn.

Chapter 7.

I took a shower once Josh left to go sit with the boys, the affect Josh had over me was insane, not the whole sex thing, just how he made me feel. I don't know, just he actually makes me feel beautiful when he says it, it's like he means it. 

I threw on a pair of sweats from PINK & decided to maybe just take a nap, I was pretty exhausted anyways, but then I heard my phone vibrate, it was on the other side of the room so by time I grabbed it, the person already hung up, but then it vibrated again from a voice mail. It was Zayn.

Why was he doing this? I can hear his voice start to crack up, & my eyes started getting watery. I can't hide the fact, that I was still madly in love with Zayn, but I loved Josh so much. Why was this happening? Before I knew it, I was downstairs, & heading out the door. "Where are you going babe?" Josh asked before the door closed, but I acted like I didn't hear him. I just needed to see Zayn. 

I knew where he was. The place we would always hangout at recess, or afterschool. It was at our school park, underneath the third tree. 

While I was walking I noticed the sky was getting darker, I could tell it was going to rain again, but it hasn't yer & the school was right by my house. 

Once I finally arrived I saw Zayn laying there, on his back, his hands were behind his head & his eyes closed. I walked up to him. He was so beautiful, I swear, he's definitely grown up.

"Hey..." I barely get out. His eyes shoot open. "Hey!" he says, getting up. "What are you doing here?" he asks. "Well..I got your uh voice mail, I kinda figured this is the only place you'd be at." I say. "Oh..well you were right." he said. I laughed awkwardly. "You're still the same awkward person, eh?" he says. "Hey, don't even start about awkward, you hipster freak." I say, making us both laugh. 

The rain finally started pouring down on us. "Shit." I mumbled before Zayn took my hand & we ran toward the slide, & went under it since it was the only dry place. I tried to fix my hair before Zayn pulled my hand away. "You look beautiful as always don't worry about your hair." he says making me smile. He knew he had me.

His hand found it way under my chin making me look up at him. "I mean it." he says, his head leaning in. I didn't back away, I let his lips graze mine before he pulled me into one of the best kisses I've ever had. I moved my lips in synchronization to his. His tongue swiftly glided against my bottom lip making me open my mouth. His tongue danced with mine, exploring each others mouths.

God, this was so wrong, but it feels so right. 

His hands made their way to my waist, to my bum, & my arms were wrapped around his neck. 

We finally pulled away to catch our breath, & I looked up at him & he smiled at me. "Zayn..." I start to say before he interrupted me. "I know what you're going to say, I know it's wrong, I feel bad, but I love you. We don't have to tell Josh...just let me show you how much better I can treat you..how much more I can love you than him...just give us a chance." he said before kissing me, softer than before. "Just let me show you." he says into my lips. 

"Zayn..we can't get caught." I say. He smiled again. "We won't." 

---ok I'm so sorry that's it's really short, I'll update tomorrow, or Friday, It's just I had rewrite this & now I have to sleep. ok. bye. ---