I'm torn.

Chapter 3.

"What?" I ask, as much as I tried to hide it, I could feel my cheeks flush red. "I said you two totally just fucked, it's pretty obvious." Harry says, running his hands through his hair. "We did not!" I say, trying to not make it obvious I was lying. I looked over & Zayn was staring at me, he was the only one who could probably tell I was lying, he was scanning my face, he looked down, shook his head & sighed. Yeah he knew. 

"y/n all the pinpoints are here." Harry says, still smirking. "What pin points Harry?" I ask raising an eyebrow. "First off, your hair, looks nothing like it did earlier, major case of sex hair." he says. "I could've fallen asleep." I say. "Maybe, but when we walked in you were all out of breath & sweaty." he says. "I could've took a jog." I say. "But I thought you took a nap?" he asks raising an eyebrow. "Who says I couldn't have took a nap & then went jogging?" I ask. "Fine, y/n you & Josh totally didn't have sex." he says. 

"Babe!" Josh calls. "What?" I ask. "Can you come here?" he asks, in the kitchen. I get up, & walk, but I can feel myself limping & Harry gave me a cheeky smile, "Who totally didn't just have sex? he asks, before all the boys started laughing, but Zayn didn't he just sat there. I don't know what his deal was. 

I  grabbed a pillow & threw it at Harry. "Fuck off." I say, making the boys laugh harder & Zayn actually smiled. I walked off into the kitchen to see Josh standing up, smiling. "What'd you need babe?" I ask. He gives me a smile "Nothing, just wanted make sure you're okay." he says wrapping his arms around my waist. I place my arms around his neck & kiss him gently. "I'm fine, but you made me limp you asshole." I say smiling. He chuckles & kisses me again. "Sorry about that." he says, blushing. "Who said I didn't like it?" I whisper in his ear & start to laugh. He bursts out laughing, "You can never say anything seductive without laughing." he says. "I'm sorry." I say, still trying not to laugh. "Don't be I think it's cute." he says kissing the tip of my nose. 

We both get some chips & pop cans for the boys. Once we have everything we head back to the living room where the boys were laughing & talking except for Niall & Zayn. They looked like they were having a deep conversation. I tried to make out what they were saying, but it was too hard, they were pretty much whispering. 

I sat next to Josh, & Louis. Josh put his arm around my waist so we were all close together. This is actually really boring, I don't know why they're enjoying themselves so much by playing video games & being all weird. I guess that's what guys do.. I started to drift asleep in Josh's arms. I wasn't completely asleep, I could still hear everything, but my eyes were shut, & my body was weak. 

"Mate I think y/n fell asleep." Liam says. Josh shook me a bit to see if I was up, I slightly opened my eyes & he smiled at me. "Someone's sleepy." he says kissing my forehead. I bury my head deeper into his chest & Josh grips onto my waist tighter. 

I finally wake up, but I'm on Josh's bed, he must've carried me up here while I was sleeping. I start getting up, I guess the boys are still here from the shouting at the TV. I sigh & get off the bed, but when I go to open the door, I hear two people by the bathroom talking. 

"Zayn, you have to tell her, you'll regret it if you don't." Louis says. "But, she's taken...she seems happy with Josh." Zayn, sighs. "Zayn, you never know, she might still have feelings for you, you just have to tell her you do." Louis says. "I just can't believe this is happening, Louis. I came back here to tell her I loved her, but she's with him." Zayn, says. 

What was happening. I thought we were over each other, I thought I was over him, but I can't get this strange case of butterflies out of my stomach. This cannot be happening to me right now, I loved Josh, he was the only one who was supposed to make me feel like this. 

I open the door & both boys jump. I try to play it cool, & ignore them. I walk towards the living room & crawl up into a ball next to Josh. "Sleeping Beauty is finally awake." he says, smiling & kissing me. I watch the boys play their video games & cuddle next to Josh. 

Zayn & Niall finally come back to the living room, but I can't help but notice Zayn's eyes burning through us. He looked envious of Josh, I don't get why. I'm not all that great, I mean, I'm decent looking, but I wasn't like a goddess or whatever, nothing special compared to what these boys could have. 

Zayn was still staring at us, I'm trying my best to ignore it, so I look up at Josh. He gives me a smile before kissing me. I could tell he was about to pull away but I put my hand on his cheek, letting him know he wasn't going anywhere. I finally pulled away & Josh raised an eyebrow, I shrugged & looked at the TV. 

"I'm sooooo hungry!" Niall groans. "We can go get something to eat?" Louis asks. "I'm not trying to be weird, but I like it here, I don't wanna leave." Harry says, chuckling. Niall & Louis nodded in agreement. "I can pick something up." I suggest. "You know Josh I really like your girlfriend." Niall says. Josh smiles & says. "Who wouldn't?" I can feel my face turning a bit red, I don't know why though, that's just something that happens to me quite a bit. 

"Uh. so what do you guys want?" I ask. "Pizza?" Louis asks, the boys nod in agreement. I nod & get up. "Babe you want me to come with?" Josh asks. "No don't worry stay here." I say pecking his lips & getting up. "y/n you can't go alone!" Harry yells. "I'll be fine." I say. "No, look Zayn's not doing anything, he can go with you." Niall says. Zayn looked a bit shocked. "No it's fine, he doesn't have to go." I say. "No, I'll go." Zayn says standing up. "Oh, well okay then." I say. 

We both get into the car, & turn on the radio. What makes you beautiful was playing, & I didn't notice I was singing along, yeah I know I said I wasn't a big fan of them, but this song was on constantly, so I knew all the words. Zayn started to laugh. "What?" I ask. "You just don't seem like the type to be a fan of our music." he says, considering I listened to alternative bands & rap music. "I'm not, I can't help this damn song is always on." I say, making him laugh louder. 

We get to the pizza place & go inside. Zayn grabs the pizza & I pay, even though Zayn was trying to, but I pulled my money out first, & he looked like he wanted to kill me. "Loser." I say making an 'L' with my fingers & placing it on my forehead. He laughs & calls me a weirdo. I don't know ever since we were younger, I've always called Zayn a loser & he'd call me a weirdo or creep. 

We got into the car, & were just talking about anything really, until we were about five minutes away from the house. 

"Hey...y/n...can I tell you something?" he asks.