I'm torn.

Chapter 5.

Josh looked beyond pissed. "Baby, look, I pulled away, I promise, you can even ask Harry, he saw." I say. "Josh, please say something." I say. "That fucking asshole." he says. "Hey, it's not big deal." I say. "No big deal! He kissed my girlfriend!" he practically yells.

I hate when he yells, I know Josh would never hurt me, but honestly, he scares me a bit. I kinda curl up, a bit as he stands up while continuing to yell about this. Josh usually never gets like this, but when he does, he's just I don't know. Josh isn't much taller than me, but he's so much stronger, it's kinda overpowering. 

I think Josh can tell I'm a bit frightened because he sighs & hugs me. "You know I love you right?" he asks, trying to get me to look at him. I just nod quickly. "I'd never, ever hurt you. I love you so much y/n. I think it's unhealthy" he chuckles out. "I love you too." I say before leaning into the hug. "I'm sorry for all the yelling. I know it's not your fault." he says into the crook of my neck.  

"I think I should I should try to find another band.." he says. "What? Are you insane? Josh no, this is your dream, I will fucking kill you if you leave it." I say. He chuckles & says "You've always been a feisty one." "I'm not going to let you leave one of the best things that's happened to you." I say. "You're the best thing that's happened to me, & if that means I have to give up a few things then so be it." he says. "You're not giving this up for me, I don't care Joshua this is something you're not giving up." I say. "You sure?" he asks. "Yes, I'm positive but uh just don't say anything to Zayn alright? He apologized & everything just drop it please." I beg. "Fine." he says.

"I love you Josh." I say. He gives me a small smile. "I love you too." he says before pressing his lips lightly on mine. "Wanna go to bed?" he asks. "Uh, can I take a shower?" I ask.  He nods quickly.

The shower was finally warmed up & got in. I already had shampoo & all that shit here since I would sleep over whenever my parents were outta town, which is a lot & Josh lived alone. I step into the shower & do everything I need. Once I get out I wrap a towel around my body. "Shit." I mumble to myself since I must've forgotten my clothes on the bed, even though I swore I brought them. 

I check his bed but they aren't there, the dresser, nothing. What the fuck.

"Josh!" I yell out. "Looking for these?" he asks with a smirk. "Not funny Josh, I'm freezing, please give me the clothes." I beg. "Hm.. no." he says before running away. Fucking shit, it's freezing. I close the bedroom door, I had my bra & panties already, Josh just had everything else. 

I put slid on my undergarments quickly & then looked for something of his to wear. I finally found an over sized shirt, & put it on. It went past my bum, so I was all good. 

I opened the bedroom door & slid into his bed. "Josh I'm tired!" I whined, hoping he'd hear. He stepped into the room. He raised an eyebrow at me. "You wouldn't give me my clothes, so I took yours. He smirked at me & changed quickly. Well I shouldn't say he changed since all he sleeps in are his boxers. 

He faces his my back & wraps his arms around my waist. "Goodnight beautiful." he mumbles into my ear. "Goodnight babe." I sigh shutting my eyes & letting my sleepiness take over. 

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I wake up to see Josh shuffling around. "What are you doing?" I ask still drowsy. "I'm late, shit. Niall & the rest of the boys are going to be here any minute." he says trying to get everything together. "Need anything?" I ask. "No, I didn't mean to wake you. Sorry." he says. I notice him getting frustrated. I get outta the bed & put my hands on his shoulders. "Hey, hey, hey, calm down. They'll survive if you're a few minutes late. Tell them I kept you back." I say smiling. He grins at me. "& this is why I love you." he says before I collide my lips with his. 

He puts his hand on my waist pulling me closer to him . I wrap my arms around his neck & my tongue swipes across his bottom lip & he happily widened his mouth. My tongue glides along with his. He starts grinding our parts together & that's when he slides his hands down underneath my thighs, implying me to jump. & that's exactly what I did. I wrapped my legs around his waist. & that's when we heard. "Oh my god." 

I immediately pull away from Josh, but he doesn't lose his grip. I see Zayn & Niall standing there. I know the shirt is pretty much pulled up so you can see my knickers & everything. Josh sighs & puts me down lightly. "We uh...need to go." Niall says awkwardly. "Of course we do." Josh mutters under his breath. 

"Uh, see you later babe." Josh says before kissing me softly.

As they walk out of the room I hear Niall says "Damn you were getting some at this time!" "SHUT UP NIALL!" I yell & I hear the other boys chuckle.  

Josh has been gone for a few hours, & I was beyond bored. I log onto my laptop & the check the news & shit since I like to be kept up to date. & the first fucking thing I see is.

Who's Zayn Malik's new girl?" 

& under was the picture of us lip locking. Shit. 

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sorry it's so short, really didn't have time. I'll update tomorrow though. ok.