Harlem Lovin

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Yasmine - December 30th, 2014
It was about four in the morning and I couldn't sleep for a number of reasons. I had a lot on my mind and I was a little sad. I wouldn't be able to come home for New Years and that bummed me out. I luckily was allowed to come home for Christmas but I just missed everyone. Bri was a little over four months and her baby shower will be in March right before I leave for Paris and I still haven't been able to plan anything. I decided to call her because I knew she was up. She slept all day and was up all night and still managed to work.

Hey you how come you aren't asleep? She asked answering the facetime call.

"I can't sleep and I'm sad." I pouted.

Aw why Florida isn't treating you too good?

"No it's really nice here but I just miss everybody and I'm sad I won't be there for the holiday. Plus I need to start planning your shower and I haven't had a lot of time to."

Aw it's okay I haven't found out the gender yet so when I do we can start planning it. I miss you too and Rocky does too cause this nigga is at our house every other day. She rolled her eyes causing me to laugh.

"So how did the dinner go with mommy? I wish our schedules would've allowed all of us to meet."

She was shocked as hell and she started crying which made me cry and she said she was excited and happy and, glad that Ferg is the person I chose to have a child with.

"See I told you it was nothing to worry about."

Yeah, so how's that new assistant of yours? I know she doesn't compare to me but you know.

"Good bye, but she's super sweet, she's shy but around me she's herself which I love. She's a good assistant so I can't really complain. I can't wait for y'all to meet."

Invite her to the baby shower.

"Really? What's gotten into you?" I joked.

Girl I don't know this baby made me nice but I'm pretty sure if you like her I'll love her.

"Alright well I'll let you get back to work and tell Ferg I said hey."

Okay I love you talk to you later.

"I love you too."

I put my phone on the charger and turned off the light on the nightstand. My thoughts wondered as they usually did before I went to sleep every night. Sometimes I wished I knew more about my family because I know they're out there but my parents moved away before I could know them. I closed my eyes and I rolled over and went right to sleep.
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I was currently on my way to Miami for an interview for another magazine that I'll be featured in. I loved interviews but today just wasn't my day. I wasn't feeling so well and I was in desperate need of a talk. I hadn't seen my therapist since I've been traveling and I felt very heavy.

Hey Yas you okay? Mya snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah I'm fine." I sat up taking a deep breath.

Okay well we're here.

I got out of the truck and made my way inside the building. I knew I had business to handle so I needed to put all the sad shit in the back for a minute. We made our way into the room where the interview will be filmed and I was greeted by everyone helping today. I went into makeup and I just wanted something natural.

I walked on set and they put the mic on me and I started feeling that very familiar wave of anxiety. I closed my eyes and started breathing focusing on the sound of the vent blowing air.