Harlem Lovin

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Yasmine - Two weeks later
We were finally back home and things just weren't the same. I could tell Rocky was depressed but he didn't want to admit it so instead he went to drinking and smoking. I tried to get him to see a therapist but he said there wasn't a need for that. We didn't talk much because he had a lot of business events and meeting to attend, and when we did speak and see each other it was just hi and bye. He was out by the morning and came in when I was asleep. I see the path he is heading towards and I was concerned and scared.

I walked inside the building where my therapist is located and checked in waiting for my meeting to begin. I sat and watched the tv they had on and it was nothing really interesting but I had nothing else better to do.

Yasmine? I looked up seeing Angela had appeared in the doorway.

I smiled and got up as we made out way into her office. I sat down and took off my sunglasses letting out a huge sigh.

You look heavy and tired Yasmine, what's going on?

"Literally every damn thing." I shook my head.

Start where you'd like.

"A friend of mine and a practical brother of Rocky's passed away a couple weeks ago. They weren't blood but you mind as well say that. It upset me and hit me hard but it hit Rocky even harder and it's still effecting him. I'm losing him and I don't know what to do."

If you don't mind me asking how did he pass away?

"Drug overdose, and you would think Rocky seeing his friend like that he would think twice before abusing any substance small or not. He's been drinking way more than he ever has and he's never been a drinker. He always has smoked but his intake is way more than it has ever been before. I know he's depressed and I can't help him, and I even recommended therapy but he doesn't want it."

What other behaviors is he showing?

"He's isolating himself from me and making himself busy even when he isn't. We barely speak and I just want to make sure he's okay but he won't let me in." I broke down and started crying.

She passed me some tissue and I took a deep breath before starting again.

"Every time we talk it's so short and his answer to everything is so short. He's became even a little more hostile and he was never that way."

He's withdrawing himself and that's normal grieving behavior so don't think what he's doing is your fault. You have to give him some time because two weeks it still very fresh. Just make sure that you keep that doorway for him open for when he is really ready to talk.

"So what about the drinking and smoking?" I wiped more tears.

Try and express that you're worried about him when you get that time and see what he says. Maybe he isn't aware of what he's doing because he's too busy trying to get rid of the feeling. I think it's smart to bring it to his attention. She said and I nodded.

"I feel like a hypocrite, but I think from the outside looking in I understand now."

What do you mean by that?

"I abused drugs and I know that probably hurt my best friend and her mom seeing that. I mean seeing it once they found it because nobody knew. Rocky never knew until that day, and didn't know I had went back until I came out of the hospital. Seeing him like this I know how it felt now."