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Rape victim

Rape victim

3 years na kami ng girlfriend ko ng umamin siya sakin na may anak na siya.

She was a victim of rape when she was 16 years old, she was used 3 times and the rapist was his step father na until now boyfriend parin ng mom niya. She tied and threatened na wag daw sasabihin sa mom niya dahil kapag ginawa nya yun, papatayin siya, mga kapatid niya kasama ang nanay niya. Because of fear, the secret was hid on her self for almost 5 years and no one knows about it. She told me that she felt helpless. Everything was ruined, her childhood, especially her outlook on life.

But the worst part here was when she found out that she was pregnant at ang sinabi niya sa mom niya, nakipag sex lang siya sa hindi niya kilala kaya nabuntis siya. Binugbog pa siya ng mom nya that time because of anger and disappontment without knowing na ung step father ang gumawa.

Sa haba ng panahon na yun hindi ko akalain na may itinatago pa pala siya saken. Kaya pala ganun nalang siya natatakot. Madalas parang wala siya sa sarili. Kapag kinikiss ko siya sa pisngi bigla siyang umiiyak. Kapag niyayakap ko siya, nanginginig siya sa takot.

Akala ko sensitive lang siya o hindi pa siya ready kaya nga never ko siyang kinausap about sex. Never ko din siya niyaya ng ganun.

Our third anniversary, she confessed everything to me. Iyak siya ng iyak. Nakikita ko sa kanya na dala pa niya ang trauma ng nangyari sa kanya.

She said, "I don't want to remember everything but it is not fair on your part na hindi ko to sabihin sayo."

(Nasa mukha niya parin ang galit, lungkot at takot. She was very sorry kasi nilihim niya daw ng sobrang tagal yun sakin.)

The last lines she said was, "I'm expecting you to break up with me because I lied to you for how many years. I know that you can't forgive and accept me after this. I'm so sorry. Natakot lang ako sabihin sayo kasi baka iwanan mo ko. Ayoko ng mag isa. Sawang sawa na akong mag isa. Natakot lang ako mawala ka. Pero alam kong dadating din ang araw na to na malalaman mo ang lahat. Sorry dahil nag sinungaling ako."

Expected niya na hindi ko siya patatawarin. But I answered her,

"No. I already accepted everything. Hindi yun magiging dahilan ng pag tigil ng pagmamahal ko sayo. Daddy na pala ako di mo sinabi sakin. Hahaha I love you!"

Her tears were finally fell in her eyes.

She hugged me so tight.

She said that she was so happy kasi nawala na yung sikretong ilang taon niyang itinago sa puso niya.

Ngayon nakikita ko sa mukha niya ang tunay na saya na hindi ko nakikita sa kanya noon dahil sa sakit at sikretong itinatago niya. Sobrang saya namin ngayon kasama ang baby niya na baby ko narin.

I also helped her to confessed everything happened to her mom. We filed a case against her step father and now, he is imprisoned.

I love her so much.

Leo
2010
IAS