Your POV
I went upstairs and went on my bed after I locked the front door. I hugged my pillow tight while tears ran down my face and onto my pillow. I still smell his scent from where he was on my bed, but everything is different.
It's so much more colder now.
I miss him.
I grabbed my phone and I saw my wallpaper of him. I decided to change it and text Sara.
"Hey"
Was what I was about to send, but I think I need some space.
I went downstairs when I was ready, I ate breakfast and cleaned the whole place. My whole mind was blank, I couldn't think about anything else other than what happened but I can't think about it without crying. After I cleaned the whole kitchen and dining area, I close the lights and went upstairs.
I noticed that he left his hoodie on the floor and I began to think of what to do.
Should I keep it or?...
I think the best thing to do is just give it back to him. Even if it sucks and burns like hell, I have to. I gotta return the hoodie that I'm wearing too.
Just... I'll give it to him on Monday.
Then it's good bye, no more Ari.
I mean... Why did he have to be such an a*shole about it? It's not like things are gonna change even if we're still together.
I have to go outside and go somewhere to get him off my mind or just generally do something, I'd do anything to not let him cross my mind.
I showered and got dressed with a simple dress, I didn't bother thinking about what to wear when there's no one to dress up for. I grabbed some shoes and socks and left the house. I didn't bother bringing my phone because talking to people gets exhausting in situations like these.
I walked and walked outside until I reached our city park. I sat beside a napalm tree that was over looking a pond of fish. I decided to gather my thoughts and just think.
For a moment where everything was okay, and we were happy... Why did he just decide to leave? Am I not serious enough for people? Am I not the type to be thought of having a serious relationship with?
Why did I even bother loving him when it was obvious he didn't love me back anyway?
Why am I being played with, like I'm a toy? I'm not a f*cking dating simulator so stop trying to make me into one.
I suppressed a tear as I sat and got some fresh air for another 20 minutes of me complaining and wishing I was worth something.
I was never his lover, I just thought I was. Yet, I'm still the dumb one. How can I fall in love eith someone whom I've only known for two days? I wish I didn't daydream about our future. I wish I didn't dream about him. I wish I never said I love you back. I wish I never met him.
But at the same time... I hope that none of these wishes come true.
I'll admit that he was a douche, but he actually cared for me... Like when he confronted my ex, or when he cheered me up whenever I was talking about my problems during work, or how he always knows what to say.
I still love him, and I still wish that he still loves me the way I love him.
But no. Reality sucks.
I got up from the bench I sat in and started to walk back to my house. I passed through his place and I stopped and stared.
I wanna see him.
I wanna kiss him.
I want to hug him.
But he doesn't love me back.
Ari's POV
"Sh*t..."
I miss her...
I feel like my ex doesn't even matter anymore.
What the hell?!
I broke this relationship between us up but I didn't need to do it?! I miss her so goddamn much!
I feel like such an idiot.
I went outside to go back to her house but as I took a step out, I saw her from across the road.
I have to get to her. I just want to redeem myself. She looked like she didn't bear seeing me, she looked down to her side as she crossed her arms.
I held my hand out at coming cars but as I got to the other side of the road, she was already going to the direction of her house.
I ran towards her and grabbed her shoulder to have her face me.
A/N
HOW'S THAT FOR A LITTLE CLIFFHANGER. tUNE IN NEXT TIME fOlKs!
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(DISCONTINUED) blue boy. // Lauv x Reader
Fanfiction• "I spent my entire life getting hung up on a person when someone better was just waiting to be discovered." "Don't worry, I understand. It took me awhile before I realized I could have you instead." Damn. I love you. •