The Bitch You Killed

Chapter Six

Song of the chapter is Florence + the Machines' 'Over the Love' from The Great Gatsby Soundtrack (absolutely fantastic novel and film).

Picture of Colton Haynes on the side who plays Caleb (in my head of course).

CHAPTER SIX

Caleb Benson and I dated for two years, but our relationship was kind of unstable. He supposedly cheated on me numerous times and it would result in a fight which then resulted in us splitting up. Of course we got back together hours later as he would create a grand display of affection for me and insist he wanted me back because he loved me. This grasped a lot of attention and since I was an attention whore; I always accepted, so we got back together and things were great.

That is until he cheated on me again.

It didn't matter how many times Caleb and I broke up because of his infidelity; people would always ask why I got back together with him. The answer I always gave them was that I loved him.

However, I knew that was a lie. It made sense for us to date, we were both hot and popular, but together we were better. We were more powerful and that is something I craved. Power. Attention. Love.

I knew I didn't love Caleb because I knew that I loved Tyler. But I had hurt Tyler and in turn he had hurt me so I figured we would never be together. Caleb was second best and I think he always knew that. He didn't seem to mind until I told him when we were arguing a few months before my party.

"Do you want to know why I cheat on you Khloe?" he asked – we were arguing over why he felt the need to fuck every girl who threw themselves at him when he had a girlfriend.

"Yes, Caleb, why don't you enlighten me?"

"Because I will never be what you want. I've tried so hard to make you love me, but for some reason, it's just never enough. For a while I figured that it was because of Mackenzie, we both know that she had a thing for me but then I asked you out and you accepted so it would have been only natural for you to try to prevent yourself from getting deeper feelings for me. But that was nearly two years ago! I'm pretty sure that Mackenzie would be over me by now so then I asked myself 'What am I doing wrong?' Contrary to popular belief Khloe, I do really like you – a lot. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you. But do you want to know why I feel the need to hurt you by cheating on you? Because you don't love me – never have and never will.

By cheating on you, I was looking to see if it would actually hurt you? If it did, then you would put up a bigger fight to let me get back with you since we both know how difficult it can be to apologise to you when you've been upset by something.

But no, you took me back, claiming it was because you loved me. And I, like all those morons in the school, believed you. For a while. But then I realised that you don't actually. And I'm pretty sure it's because there's someone else. So that, my dear Khloe, is why I feel the need to hurt you. You've hurt me so I think it's only natural for me to hurt you back. But it never seems to work as much as I would like it too," he stated.

I didn't like the way Caleb said it or looked when he said it. He had a glint in his eye that I just couldn't quite place. I knew Caleb was violent, but he was never overly violent with me, he was rough and thought nothing of grabbing me and swinging me over his shoulder to take me off somewhere. But he was never violent when dealing with me.

Not until that night.

In response to his statement, I laughed. I put all the skills I had acquired over the years into making a fantastic portrayal of the loving girlfriend who was practically broken by his promiscuous ways. I told him I loved him, I even cried a little.