EVERY BREATH

N I N E

As I lay on my bed remembering those cold green eyes a tear escapes my eye. He had looked away and pretended not to know me. He has changed so much and my heart aches so much and my body feels cold. How can he just pretend to not know me when Alex introduced us. I knew he would change. He's much more violent and wild then when he was mine. I hear a knock at my door.

"Who is it?" I ask curiously.

"Your best friend" Matt says popping his head in.

"Come in" I tell him. I scoot over so he can sit down.

"What's wrong you look at sad?" He says making a funny face.

"Matt, be nice I'm sad" I tell him throwing a stuffed animal at him. He laughs and sits on the bed hugging me.
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My door swings open and Layla comes in jumping on me. "Hey let's go out for ice cream I have some news for you and I'm not going to take no for an answer" she says all I do I shake my head in response because if I talk I'll give away my emotions. "Be down in 2 okay" she says and I him.

As I'm changing im thinking of how to tell her that I am pregnant and I'm worried of how she'll take it. I'm only seventeen and I'm berly going to start living. All I know is this baby is mine. Whatever it will be it will be beautiful no matter what. No one will ever convince me to get rid of it or take I away from me.

As soon as I get downstairs we get in the car and drive off. The whole car ride I stay quiet going through my thoughts and memories.
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Layla and I are sitting down talking. Well Layla has been talking the whole time about her boyfriend. There's no one else outside with us so I think it'll be easier to tell her here.

"What's going on in that little head of yours?" She asks.

"Nothing" I say backing out.

"Please talk to me lily. I need to know what's bothering you" she says and I get the courage I need to talk.

"I love you layla and I didn't mean to through all your hard work into the trash. I know you'll be disappointed.." I start to choke on my words and the tears just spill out. I cover my face because I am ashamed to even tell her what I did.

She gets up and sits next to me. She wraps her arms around me. I can't tell her she won't accept it. "I'm pregnant lay" I cry out. And she lets go of me and I can feel her get distant.

"What did you do lily" she says shaking her head. "You just fucked your whole future up. It's Ace's fucking baby huh. He fucked up your life lily. You're not keeping it"she screams.

"I'm going to keep it Layla I can't give it up" I say choking on my tears.

"Then don't bother coming home. I will never accept anyone blood related to those monsters" she says

"Layla please" I beg and she walks away. I see her get in the car and drive away. How could she just leave me here when I needed her the most?

I wipe my tears away and begin to think what I'm going to do. I can't think of anything but to call James. I don't want to but I have no one else Abby and Matt are on vacation. What am I supposed to do.

I can't think of anything so I begin to walk. Ugh what did I get myself into. I don't know what I'm going to do but I know that this baby is going to be my biggest strength and weakness. If I learned anything from my parents was that it is possible to raise a baby as a teen. They did it so why can't I?

A car slows down next to me so I begin walking faster since the windows are tinted and I can't see who's inside. The window rolls down and it's Alex. Great now I have to deal with him too.

"What are you doing out here alone? Let me give you a ride" he says.

"You can't give me a ride if I have no where to go" I say sarcastically.

"Come on get in" he says getting out of the car.

"No thanks I'm okay" I say.

"Oh, love you still don't seem to get it huh" he says.

"Ugh get what Alex, because the one that doesn't seem to get it is you. I'm trying to deal with getting kicked out of my house for being pregnant. I really just want to be left alone right now" I say and his face is in shock i don't know why yet though but I sure he'll tell in a second.

"How the fuck do you know my real name?" He asks and I look just as shocked as him.

"I don't know I think someone told me or something" I say trying to play it off.

"No, no one but my brother, my dead parents, and me know my name. And I know my brother didn't tell you because he doesn't say shit to anyone. So who told you" he says getting loud.

"I don't fucken know dude I just said it. I need to go on my way now so can you please leave me alone" I say.

"No, get in the car I'm not going to let you out here by yourself with no where to go and pregnant" he says and I know for a fact that not even if I go crazy am I staying with this idiot and his brother who clearly has forgotten about me.

"No I'm not going anywhere with you I berly know you. What if you kidnap me? I'm going to figure it out on my own" I say and he looks at me like and begins to laugh. I'm not joking with him so I begin to walk away. He taps on the window and two big guys come out and grab me.