Overflowing Again...

Drained

The bottle feels like it's been drained

I had always wished for this day

but now its here

and I feel nothing

nothing at all 

not even a tiny bit of happiness

it's been taken away

drained from the bottle

I thought id love this day

but I can't even muster up

a little hate

I cant feel love 

or sadness

like staring at the ceiling

for hours

night upon night

wishing to have even a little

 bit of emotion

just a little 

not even a lot

I thought id love this day

-v.v

what i am feeling at this current moment...