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Dying

I told my mother I was dying

she said to stop being silly 

I dont lie

I hid my pain

My tears, my aches from then on, of that day

I didn't want to hear that I was silly 

I wanted to hear that I'd be okay

I know that I'm hurting inside

But that fact that she didn't notice

Made my hurting ten times worse

Why was I the one that was dying

When I had done everything right

All I knew was everything wont be alright

My hurting was slowly killing

The killing was hurting

My mother didnt notice

When I started to die

I told my mom I was dying

Now I had told her twice

She said stop being silly 

You'll be alright

But as she now stands over my grave

And as I stand next to her 

she whispers to herself

Why you silly girl?

I told you I was dying mother

I was dying from the neglect, 

From the selfesteem you didn't build for me 

From the how lonly I felt 

When It was only you I wanted to listen

You didn't listen

Instead you helped kill me 

Kill myself

Such a silly mother

-V.V