12-in-1

~13~ Welcome Back Lex

*Alexa*

"Hey baby. If you're reading this, then I'm gone (DUH!) physically but I remain with you for the rest of your life in your heart.

It's probably gonna be hard going through all the emotions that'll come with my death but I know you can handle it. That's why I'm sending you to stay with Aunt Michelle. You may be mad at me but it's for your own good.

You've dedicated your whole life to being daddy and mummy's girl, you almost never did anything wrong, you give all your time to your siblings and that's why I love you sweetheart but it's time for you to actually live your life.

It's time for you to let your hair down and let the world know that you are around (and also that I'm not crazy. Your dad never fails to point out to me how perfectly behaved you are and how opposite I was at that age so yeah - I may be pushing you towards craziness cos of that too ;D or not).

I want you to laugh uncontrollably a lot honey! I want you to live life to the fullest cos I know I did. Auntie Michelle is probably gonna make you do all that and you have no idea how madly jealous I am at that thought. That's also kind of why I kept you away from her - I didn't want to see my baby Lexie growing up so fast.

I know you're perfectly capable of having fun and taking care of your siblings so I'm not worried.

Live your dreams, never fail to show compassion, CREATE your own happiness, follow your heart, enjoy the littlest of things, laugh out loud, be your best self, cherish every moment, dream big, embrace every possibility, discover your passion, believe in miracles, create peace, BE SPONTANEOUS, remember to breathe, FALL IN LOVE, every day is your day, today may be the day.

And no - I'm not copying off some random poster at Burlington... I'm remixing it ;)

I love you sweetheart. Mummy is always with you. Always. And so is God.

Make sure those nine months I endured your kickings are worth it. Make sure those eight painful hours of labour I went through wasn't in vain. Make sure the sixteen years, seven months I've cared for you aren't a waste. Make sure my death doesn't affect you negatively. Make sure to remind yourself you're always gonna be mummy's girl.

Always in Your Heart,

Your dearest Mum.

xoxo."

I touched my hand to my cheeks and surprisingly didn't feel any tears there.

I was smiling.

I missed her hug beyond comprehension but she was even closer to me than ever in my heart.

"I love you mum." I whispered and could almost hear her saying the words back to me.

"Lexie? You ok?"

I turned and saw Alex and without thinking twice, I flung myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist.

He stumbled back a bit but held me securely.

"I've missed you." I said into his ear.

"I've been in my room freak."

"I know. I've just missed us I guess."

"You read their letter?"

"Only mum's. I'm saving Dad's for some other time."

"Well its good to have you back."

"It's surprisingly good to be back."

"Have you got your proposal for our outing ready?"

"Nope. Want to get me something to snack on while I think about it?"