When It Comes To You |j.k

44: 紐約

———Jungkook's

I look up from my desk and purse my lips, gazing at Jun who was engrossed in his work as usual, typing away on his keyboard like the world was at stake.

I'd hate to bother him with such stupid questions.

"Hey."

He shoots his head up with wide eyes, "Yes?"

"You have a girlfriend, right?"

His eyebrows curve as he jolts back, probably taken aback that it had nothing to do with work whatsoever, "Yes, sir."

"Do you guys ever fight?"

His eyebrows unknot and rise up, "You need advice?"

"No, just...I guess, yeah" Might as well be honest.

He pushed his chair back and stands up, walking over to the couch with a grin on his face, I follow. I feel as far away from being a ceo now more than ever.

"Now," He sits down and I do the same across from him.

"Did this happen this morning?"

I swallow, "How did you know?"

"You're always stressed, but never sad or frustrated. You looked different today. Not the good kind. Say, what happened between you and..Aera?"

I recalled what happened this morning. We were ugly together, truly ugly, "I was um..looking around her house to see if she needed anything. As you know we're going to New York soon, I was hoping to find out what else I could do for her before I leave."

He nods, "Her refrigerator was..bad. I don't know what was wrong with it, it was just bad. I asked her about getting a new one, and she just...blew up."

My mind pollutes with the image of that angry look on her face. And the sound of how rough her voice was, and how mine was the same way too. I didn't mean to reply so angrily, maybe if I'd controlled my temper, we would be in a better position right now. If I hadn't ended it with me slamming the door in her face.

But I was hurt. And so was she. I think we both had the right to be.

"How'd she react to the gifts you told me to order for her?"

Right. "Not too well. She was thankful, but..unhappy. She doesn't like gifts, is what it is. It's more of a burden for her than anything else."

"Well then maybe that's the issue. She feels pressure whenever you try to be there for her, because she feels an obligation to repay or not accept it."

"I know! I don't need you to tell me what she's already yelled to me in my face. My ears were open, I heard her."

He backs up, "Alright, then! No need to snap at me like that." He sips on his cup nervously.

"What am I supposed to help you with?"

"I just..don't know what to do after things like this. She's been texting me, and I don't know how I should react. I've never fought with her before, or anybody else."

"Well," He cocks his head to the side and sucks in a breath, "To spare you the pain of every other couple in the world, find out what you want to happen next. Do you want space or do you want to make up?"

"Why can't people make up while also giving each other space?"

He purses his lips, "I'm not sure, there isn't really an actual reason I can give you, but it just never works out that way. But it does sound like you want space, I suppose it's better to just keep distance then."

Distance.

Distance from Aera.

I don't want it to be the same distance from the last three years. My stomach churns at the thought.

"What if I end up missing her?"My ears redden as I asked this.

"That's not a bad thing, when you miss someone you're reminded of why you want to keep them around. But at the same time, the distance put between you two can help you figure out what you want fixed and left behind, for when you're ready to get back together that is."

I nod, sighing. I hope Aera will be okay with this. Or maybe this is about me realizing that I can choose myself over her sometimes. She might not be okay with this, but this is what I need. I'm not leaving her, just..figuring things out.

This was what I meant that night, when I'd asked her if we were truly together. I'd realized that it wasn't simply happily ever after, after we found each other. There were still many more pages to flip through. One good thing was that we reunited, but everything else won't vanish just because we have each other. Not a lot of people who love each other end up staying together. They never stop loving each other, but in their hearts they know they aren't made to love together.

I don't want Aera and I to be like that. But I know being in a relationship isn't just a walk in the park.

I love her.

That's why I'm taking it seriously. That's why I bother taking a break. Because I want it to be good for us. I think we are rushing things.

"...do you think I should tell her about New York?"

His eyes widen, "She doesn't know yet? Shit...I guess not?"

"Bad idea?"

"Bad idea." He nodded.