When It Comes To You |j.k

68: 車程

"Aera, let's take a break."

His voice pierced through the silence of the car. My eyes widened as I turned to look at the man beside me who had his eyes focused on the road. What now?

"Huh?"

"Let's take a break on all this. Just a month, let's go somewhere far away, where nobody knows us." I let out an exhale from relief. He's got to learn to stop giving me potential cardiac arrest.

He's mentioned something like this before, I remember. But then that happened and I couldn't leave the house for a whole month. If he's bringing it up again, does it mean he thinks I can take it? I couldn't help but feel a little happy. Jungkook believes in me.

It sounded wonderful. But can he really be away from his responsibilities for so long? He's not nobody. Jungkook seemed to have suspected my doubt when he answered, "I have to do this before my work leaves me with just skin and bones. My company still has a president and a vice president. I'm twenty-three, Aera. I'm not wasting my years in some office instead of spending time with you."

Jungkook has been thinking about his life lately, more often than usual. He's been hesitant about his position and what he wants in life. I don't know what he wants, but I know it's not this. We both know that.

I think it's only a matter of time before he quits. The only thing holding him back is the promise he made to his late father. I just wish the promise was more about him finding happiness rather than the business.

"I would love to do something like that, but what do you think you'd do after we come back? Would you just keep working?"

It would be a shame if he has to keep doing this: repeating the cycle of running a thousand miles for his company, and sometimes going somewhere else to 'get away' from his own life. Our lives shouldn't be something we constantly try to escape from.

Jungkook is a free spirit, he's meant for so much more, I just know it. I can feel it in him, but that heart of his has been discouraged since birth. It's going to take more than my encouragment to bring it back out of him.

"I...don't know." The car came to a stop before the red light as I caught the drooping of his shoulders from the corner of my eye. "Maybe that's what that month will be. Me figuring that out."

I nodded, reaching my hand over to run it up his shoulder. I lean in to leave a kiss on his temple, "Well, where would you want to go?"

He shrugs, "What about you? I just want somewhere simple, where I can be out of reach." That made my heart ache some how. It goes to show just how much he wants to be out of this life. It doesn't matter where. Just not here. He's slowly breaking free from his cage, but he still doesn't know where to fly next.

"Bhutan."

He looked at me with his confused doe eyes, "Bhutan?"

I nodded, "No one there knows us, and we won't hear anything about us because they don't use wifi. It's up in the mountains, and it's so so beautiful."

"Where did you hear about this?" Jungkook tore his gaze from me reluctantly and focused back onto the road as the traffic light shone green.

"Here and there on the internet. We'll be so close to nature there too. I can show you pictures when we get home after the dinner."

We were finally going to meet the rest Bangtan, well, one seventh of them. Unfortunately, most of them are out of town, and some not even within the country. Jungkook finally told me when I confronted him about their news a few nights ago. The only person we could reach for the time being was Eunae. After Jungkook shifted his monster schedule, we finally settled down to meet tonight.