If You Only Knew

Chapter 2

Devon's POV

"Oh ayan, tapos na! Ang galing ko!" exclaimed Sir Ed, my makeup artist as he applied finishing touches to my face.

I stared back at my reflection in the mirror. A lot about me has changed in the past 8 years since PBB. My face isn't the only thing that's matured; so has my inner self. Going through what I have can take a huge toll on a person.

Inside the Big Brother House, I was cut off from the rest of the world. The only people I could talk to were trapped inside with me. We were all each other had, and it's safe to say some connections were made. James and I were completely unaware of the fact that people all over the country were shipping us together. Truth be told, we were just in our own little bubble and it didn't occur to me that the friendship we had made would change my entire life.

When we left the house, we were bombarded with support from our new fans; the Jaevon Gems. We were paired in a new TV show together along with our old housemates and James and I were invited to guest on various shows. It felt like I was living a dream. But I'd soon come to learn that life wasn't that easy. Apparently even though our love team had so much support, there were also a lot of people who didn't like me for reasons I had no idea why. I used to think it was just because they didn't like me with James and they wanted him with other people. I never took that reasoning to heart because I knew what it was like to want your favourite stars together.

Unfortunately the hate just continued to grow and I had no idea why. I tried to shrug it off. To pretend that it didn't affect me. But I could only put on a show for so long. In public, I'd present myself as a happy-go-lucky person, even though inside I was hurting. No one knew that sometimes when I was at home by myself I would read the hate comments about me. When it would all get too much I couldn't help but cry.

I didn't understand how some people could be so cruel. They forget that I'm a person, that I have feelings. Luckily I fought through it all. Their words didn't break me down like they wanted them too; it just made me stronger. And here I am, staring back at myself in the mirror, proud of the woman I have become.

"Ikaw Sir Ed talaga ang fairy godmother ko," I laughed.

Before he could respond, Kiko came up behind us ruffled my hair. Sir Ed slapped his hand.

"Aray! Sir ano bah?" Kiko whined.

"Sinira mo yung masterpiece ko eh!"

"Ano ka ba sir, Devon's beautiful no matter what," he said smiling down at me.

Sir Ed smirked. "Baka magkadevelopan kayo ha? Ang cute nyung dalawa."

"Weh, ako lang yung cute. Si Kiko parang aswang yung itsura," I giggled.

"Akala ko mahal mo ako Devon, bakit ang sama mo sa akin?" Kiko joked.

"Alam mo naman na mahal kita diba? At yung pagiging bully ko sayo is my way of showing you," I winked back.

When I said those words, Kiko got caught in some sort of a trance, as though he was deep in thought. But after a few seconds he finally snapped out of it and his lips formed a teasing smile. "Naw, Devy mahal mo ako?"

I playfully rolled my eyes and smiled back, "Oo naman no. Kaibigan kita eh, wala naman akong choice."

Suddenly, Kiko's demeanor changed once again. His face morphed into a look of disappointment. "Ah sige, mauna muna ako. May kukunin pa ako sa room ko eh."

"Oh okay, kita na lang tayo mamaya," I replied, confused. As I watched him walk off I turned to Sir Ed, "Anong problema nya kaya? Bakit siya ganywan?"

Sir Ed chuckled, "Tanga ka ba? Nilagay mo siya sa friendzone eh! Sino bang tao hindi magiging upset kung yung tao gusta nila, thinks of them as a friend lang?"

"Ano? Hindi naman ako gusto ni Kiko ng ganyan eh? Kaibigan din naman yung tingin nya sa akin ah."

It was true. In the times that I have hung out with Kiko, never have I experienced him show me that he liked me more than a friend. And we've been friends for a really long time. And sure he's good looking and kind, but I've also heard he's a little bit of a player. I haven't seen him settle down with a girl for more than a few months and I don't just want to be another girl on his list.

Boys have never been a priority for me, but I know that when I eventually do get a boyfriend, I want him to be someone I can depend on. Someone who'll be there for me through everything. I don't want someone who will drop me as soon as they get bored. That's all I'm asking for, and to be honest, I don't think Kiko is it. He's an amazing friend! But boyfriend material? I don't think so.

"Basta girl, bulag ka talaga if you don't think na may gusto siya sayo!"

I brushed off Sir Ed's comments and tried to forget about what he said. Kiko and I are friends, and nothing is going to change that.

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Author's Note:

Thank you to everyone who has been reading this story so far! I hope you guys enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writing it. I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm giving myself kilig while I write this.

Whether or not Devon or Kiko get together in real life, I just hope that their love team continues to grow and that the support for them grows as well. Now that they're in the same network, there's a bigger possibility that they'll be able to work together. So please continue to support them and make it known to management that their pairing has huge potential.

Anyway, thanks again for reading this and I would really appreciate it if you voted for this story and comment your thoughts.

--SecretLove x