If You Only Knew

Chapter 1

Kiko's POV

Never in my life did I imagine that I would fall completely, head-over-heels in love at 26 years old. But I couldn't help it, she was just so damn beautiful.

"Hoy, Kiko! Okay ka lang ba? Nakatulala ka lang dyan eh," laughed Devon as she playfully waved her hand in my face to get my attention.

I felt the heat creeping up my cheeks, signalling that I was about to start blushing. She had just caught me staring at her and I hoped to God she didn't notice anything. But to make sure, I teasingly brushed her off.

"Sorry, akala ko there was something on your face. Nose mo lang pala yun," I said jokingly.

"Sira! Ang sama mo talaga!" Devon exclaimed, pretending to be sad.

I rolled my eyes. "Alam mo naman I was only joking. Ang ganda mo kaya," I replied with a wink.

"Palagi mo lang ako binabola. Hindi naman totoo yan."

"Devs, I promise you are one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met okay?" I say with a soft smile

I saw her lips curve into a smile. Her smile was one of the most magical things I have ever seen.  Before she could reply to me, she was being called by one of the crew to head off for hair and makeup to get ready for the mall show.

The smile that she gave me was still replaying in my mind. Even when I'm having a crappy day, when she smiles at me, all of that goes away and I feel at peace. And her laugh? Her laugh is infectious and fills up the entire room. Everything about her makes my heart beat really fast and my palms all sweaty.

I've always been known by my friends as a guy who was smooth and suave with the ladies, but with her, I can't help but feel extremely nervous. She makes me feel vulnerable and that scares me.

Now you may be wondering how I even got myself in this situation in the first place. Well I obviously wasn't expecting it. But I knew it would happen eventually. The first time I properly met Devon and got to know her, it was on the set of the second season of Angelito. I had just transferred from GMA to ABS-CBN and she was one of the first people to introduce herself to me.

The first time I met her, I knew we were going to be great friends. She was sweet and kind and extremely funny. Everyone wanted to be around her so that they could absorb her positive vibes. It was safe to say that I developed a little crush on her. I mean who wouldn't? She was gorgeous and she didn't even realize. Devon's fame was rising and she was gaining a lot of recognition, yet she remained humble and down-to-earth. In this industry, that's a rare find.

But back then, she was partnered with Sam Concepcion, I was teamed with Sue Ramirez. It didn't mean we couldn't hang out, it just meant we hung out less then I wanted. She was constantly with Sam, which was fair because they were a love team. But sometimes, I wished it was me and her hanging out. There were times when it was just her and I because everyone else was busy on set. During those moments, I got a glimpse of the real Devon. Which wasn't hard considering what you see is what you get with Devon. She never pretends to be anyone but her self and it is one of my favourite things about her.

Anyway after a while, I realized that my career with ABS wasn't really going anywhere so I decided to transfer back to GMA. Career-wise, it was the best thing for me, but it also meant I rarely saw Devon. So when I heard we would be doing the movie Pwera Usog together, I couldn't help but feel excited. Not only was the movie a success, but it ended up generating a fan base for a love team between Devon and I. Our fans were calling us Devki and for some reason, that made me really happy. Knowing that people could see the chemistry I felt with her was very validating.

The support for us grew, especially because we're in another movie together where we're paired up again. Shooting scenes with Devon was always the highlight of my working day. Being with her just made me feel complete.

Like I said before, I was someone who was usually really good with girls. But with Devon, it was different. She wasn't just any other girl to me. She was more than that. So no matter how hard I tried to flirt with her or subtly make my feelings known, nothing really came of it. I'm pretty sure she was oblivious to my advances which in retrospect is beneficial to me because it meant that I hadn't made a fool out of myself. There are times when I think that she has feelings for me, but Devon is incredibly hard to read.

Regardless, I know pursuing anything with her would be extremely difficult. She was too focused on her career to care about boys and I respected that. But the love I feel for her is burning up inside of me and I'm terrified that one day it's going to surface out of nowhere and destroy the friendship that we've built.

I wasn't ready to risk what we already had for something that had a fifty percent chance of blowing up in my face.