If You Only Knew

Chapter 10

Devon's POV

The car trip home with Kisses was surrounded by silence as I was lost in my own thoughts, reminiscing about today's events. I couldn't believe I almost let him kiss me. I  mean the only times I've ever kissed anyone was for work. I've never actually really kissed someone. But no matter how much I tried to deny it, there was a small, minuscule, part of me that wanted to kiss Kiko. 

Regardless, I blamed it on the fact that I just poured out my heart to him and I was caught in the moment. Emotions were running high and he was there to comfort me. Anyone in my position would have felt the same. But I knew in my heart that I didn't think of Kiko in that way and today just validated that feeling. I couldn't imagine being romantically involved with him. For me, our friendship was just too precious, too important, for romance to get in the way of it. 

Hopefully, Kiko felt the same way. 

"Hoy, ate Devon, bakit ang tahimik mo diyan?" Kisses asked as she nudged me and interrupted me from my thoughts. 

"Wala, bagod lang ako," I softly smiled back. 

Kisses rolled her eyes, not believing a word I said. "You're thinking about kuya Kiko 'no? Ang cute nyo talaga together!"

I laughed at her excited expression but then changed my demeanor to one of seriousness. "Kisses, honestly, hindi ko siya gusto ng ganyan. As in hangang kaibigan lang yung tingin ko sa kanya."

Kisses face fell into one of disappointment. "Huh? But if you only think of him as a friend, bakit iba ang aura mo pag kasama mo siya. I think you like him ate, but you're just afraid to admit it."

I shook my head in response. "No that's the thing, alam ko pag may gusto ako sa insang lalaki. But I don't get that feeling with him. He's one of my closest friends and I don't want that to change."

"Yung DevKi heart ko, it just broke ate," pouted Kisses.

"Ano ka ba? Ang OA mo," I laughed, "mas mabuti na friends lang kami para wala masaktan sa amin. And after all of the heartbreak I've been through, I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't date anyone in showbiz. I just think it's easier that way."

After that, Kisses decided to change the conversation to something more upbeat which I was thankful for. I didn't know how long I could keep talking about Kiko and I's relationship. The rest of the ride  was filled with innocent small talk until I arrived home. 

It was only nine in the evening which I still considered early considering I'm a night owl, but today has exhausted me physically, mentally and emotionally. Seeing Ethan was definitely not on the agenda and almost kissing Kiko certainly wasn't. I just wanted to brush my teeth and head straight to bed so that I could forget about today and start fresh. 

When I got home, I greeted my parents and my sister before making a beeline to my bedroom. I took a shower to relieve my self of the sand that still clung to my body and put my pajamas on. But before I could comfortably tuck myself into bed, I heard my phone 'ding' which signaled that I had just received a new message. I reached for my phone and lo-and-behold, the name 'KIKS' flashed on the screen.  

FROM: KIKS

Hey Devs, is it alright if I call you? I really want to you talk about today.

I inhaled a sharp breath and my heart begun to beat faster. I felt the familiar signs of anxiousness encompass my body. I really didn't want to talk about today. I honestly thought that next time I saw him I could just act normal and pretend that the almost kiss didn't happen. But lady luck was not on my side today. So I quickly typed and sent a quick response that told him it was okay before I could change my mind. 

Not even ten seconds had passed and my phone began to ring with Kiko's caller ID flashing on the screen. 

I took a deep breath in and swiped the green button to answer the call. "Hello? Kiks?"

"Devon? Hi?" I heard him take a deep breath in and released it slowly. "How are you?"

"Okay, lang. Ikaw, kamusta ka?"

"I'm okay too..." He took a long pause, which seemed like forever, before continuing. "... look, you know why I called you diba?"

"Yeah, gusto mo pagusapan yung nangyari today," I replied slowly. 

Kiko let out a nervous chuckle. "I didn't mean to almost kiss you Dev. Everything just happened so fast and I wasn't thinking. I hope you didn't think that I don't respect you, because I do, I really do. I just... I honestly don't know why I did it. Please forgive me Devy?" 

Kiko's apology melted my heart. It was sweet of him to think like that, no other guy ever valued my respect for them as much as Kiko did and I appreciated that. This became another reason as to why I refuse to let myself fall for him; I didn't want to lose a man like him from my life. 

"Kiks, okay lang talaga. I understand. You were just trying to comfort me and well... the mood kind of changed. But I know it wasn't your intention. Let's just forget about it okay?"

"Sure ka na okay ka? Because I can keep grovelling, it's not problem whatsoever. Gusto mo, i-padala kita ng McDonald's?" Kiko rambled. 

"Kiko, tumahimik ka na diyan. I'm sure na okay ako, okay?"

"Okay." I felt Kiko's smile through the phone and I couldn't help but smile as well. 

I actually felt relieved that we talked about it; clearing the air meant that there would be no more awkwardness between us. After we settled that little dilemma we just kept talking about the most random things. We ended up calling until three in the morning and I was just thankful that I wasn't scheduled to do anything until late in the afternoon. I could easily talk with Kiko for hours on end without running out of things to say; that's how amazing our friendship was. 

Kiko was an amazing guy and possessed all the qualities I would want in a guy. But like I said before, I promised myself that I wouldn't be with anyone in the entertainment industry. Dating a celebrity just felt too toxic and I after everything I've been through, I don't want to go through with that again. 

After all, for once, I deserved a happily-ever-after. 

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Author's Note

Helllloooo my loves! Welcome to Chapter 10 and I hoped you enjoyed reading it. How do you feel about Devon basically friendzoning Kiko? Hahaha

Anyways, thank's so much for reading and please vote, comment and share my story with all the DevKi  shippers you know.

Till we meet again,

SecretLove xoxo