Remember Me | D'Angelo Russell

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"I'm sorry, I just-"

"-You're fine, I shouldn't have done that without asking you first!" D'Angelo says while rubbing the back of his neck.

"I just- I, it brought back a bad memory."

"You wanna talk about it?" D'Angelo asked grabbing my hands.

He gives me a warmhearted smile and I do the same.

It would be nice to tell someone, I've never told anyone.

"Yeah," I look at D'Angelo shaking my head up and down. "I would like to talk about it."

Our eyes meet again and I begin to speak.

I tell D'Angelo the whole story, by the time I'm finished, I'm in tears.

It's hard for me to talk about.

I know people are going to say I'm an attention whore because I didn't actually get raped, but they would not understand.

I came close to being raped, his hands still touched my body in ways that I did not want them to.

His strength would overpower mine just because I'm a girl, I wasn't able to defend myself.

I felt trapped and- I felt powerless!

If Chris hadn't shown up, I don't know what would've happened.

Even though Chris saved me that night, he has also messed me up too.

Chris made me feel powerless and afraid just like Brian did, and once again, I couldn't stop it.

I spill all of my thoughts that I had kept to myself to D'Angelo.

"I don't know what to say Trinity-"

"You don't have to say anything, you're here with me now and you listened to what I had to say, and that's all that matters."

D'Angelo squeezes my hands and then he lets them go, wiping away my tears.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that, I swear I won't touch you ever again!" D'Angelo says.

"Woah, I want you to touch, I just wasn't expecting you to do that,"

D'Angelo shakes his head. "We don't have to!"

"I want to,"

"I'm not pressuring you, am I?"

"No, you're not." I shake my head.

"A-are you sure you wan-" D'Angelo starts.

I roll my eyes and I peck his lips.

"I'm sure, do you want to?" I asked.

D'Angelo nods his head.

Okay rule number 3, forget you! I think to myself.

°Rule #3 Do not lose my virginity before marriage°

I knew I was going to break that rule when I made it.

D'Angelo scoots closer to me and I bite my bottom lip.

I'm nervous, extremely nervous.

D'Angelo kisses my lips softly and he trials down my jaw towards my neck.

Yeah, we had sex.

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