A Love from racing

Prologue

The speed. The thrill of it. The adrenaline pumping thoughout my whole system making my whole being feel alive. The possibility of the danger seen with my eyes when I'm speeding around the track over taking fellow riders. My mind clear of everything but concentration. I love it and I wouldn't want to do anything else.

I've been racing motorcycles for fourteen years now and when I race off that starting line it still makes me feel just as alive as the first time. I started racing at eleven years old winning my very first race when I was twelve, I still remember that day like it was yesterday the trophy sits in the middle of my trophy case and the one I hold most valuable.

Don't mistake, it I've lost races too. I've had machical failures, I've crashed out, broke bones and had hospital stays. So there hasn't always been high points but I think thats what makes a career/life a healthy dose of balance, the highs and the lows.

I joined the factory Yamaha team back in the summer of 2012. I've been with them for six years now and they've been nothing but good to me and my family. The fans can get a little crazy at times and the press interviews can take away some of my family time but I love racing and nothing can change that, its wired in my DNA.

There are major perks that come from doing what I do, sponsorship deals, tv appearances, money, fan events, the riding academy's I do with the young kids and last but not least the girls. I've had a few relationships with different girls in my early years, some actresses and some models but most of them hadn't lasted long at all. I was away alot with races and I think the pressure of keeping up appearances is difficult. And not forgetting the media can be somewhat invasive, especially with my relationships. No matter how much I try to keep my private life private that all has contributed to my failed past relationships.

But that all changed five years ago when I met Alison Dilaurantis. She was working as my grid girl her job was to hold my riders board which has important information like how many seconds ahead of the rider behind me I am, promote my sponsors on her clothing that consisted of very little might I add , as well as hold my water or an umbrella to shade me on the starting line of the track, until my mechanics had my bike fit and the race could start.

I'd been with Yamaha a year when Ali signed and from the moment I saw her I knew I was in love. 

Her beauty made my heart skip beats but it was her personality that drew me in, had me smiling like a goof all day. And not to mention I'd crashed out a couple times because I was thinking about her. But we don't tell anybody about that, strictly a forever guarded secret. We got on right away it felt like we just fit. We connected with one another my heart raced and the butterflies in my stomach felt like they were having a party everytime I'd see her or walk by her. It felt like I'd known her my entire life.

When I was about to start a race and she'd be besides me I couldn't help but to stare. I'd get distracted during the grid interviews thinking back to them now I was a complete mess, and stuttering like crazy at times, but what can I say she was standing so close and wearing so little.

At times it was embarrassing. Getting turned on whilst in tight, full body protective leathers was uncomfortable I had to put my water bottle in my lap to hid myself so no one would see, it was painful too and not to mention starting a race in that state was unbearable. I think she knew what she used to do to me though, she would flirt perfectly to always have my heart beating a mile a minute, and have me red faced in seconds.

Ali and I began talking more and more after flirting with one another on the grid for so long, I'm talking flirting all the time. So I finally asked her out on that first date. 

Six months and countless dates later, we finally became offical girlfriends. From that day on I don't think I've stopped smiling or laughing, I never knew I could love someone so strongly like I could with Ali. We've be together for four years now and recently Ali found out she's pregnant with our child. We had our doctor comfirm it after she'd taken a few at home tests, Dr Moore put her at around six weeks.

When Alison was eight weeks we had our first ultrasound scan of the baby, which we were told was to be born on July 22nd. There wasn't a great deal to see during that scan on the screen just a weird looking shape that apparently was our baby. It was beyond magical we both had tears in our eyes it was all so real in that moment, and I never thought I'd have such an enormous amount of love for that simple somewhat rounded looking shape I hadn't even met yet.

That was four weeks ago. She's about twelve weeks along and it was getting noticeable now, a very small but there bump had started to appear.

It did come as a bit of a shock to us both when we very first found out we were expecting. It's rare for intersex people like myself to be fertile let alone reproduce. I'd had countless tests done that confirmed this, I'd had some tests done before but they were mixed results so they decided on a second lot of testing. 

Thus having the second lot of tests we thought I was defective. After the second set of results came in stating the fact. So, we didn't bother being careful in the bedroom like we had been before, as nothing would come from doing so. 

Or that is what we had been told. But little did we know at the time something would come from it. I guess the results and medical staff were wrong. Much to the shock of the doctors, our families and even us. Although everyone seemed supportive and happy for Ali and I, which we were over the moon about.

I had more tests done a week or so after we found out we were pregnant, and sure enough they came back and I was completely effective everything was working in the tank I was hardly firing any blanks. But the doctor explained that this sometimes happened, he used fancy medical terms I don't remember but in basic terms as I'd gotten older they had become more lively.

I wasn't bothered with all the chatter I was more focused on the fact that I could have biological children with Alison than anything else. I was beyond happy my body could give us a family when we had thought it couldn't before.

We were told by Dr Moore that because of this, me able to get Alison pregnant. That we were to have more scans of the baby then say a normal conceiving couple would to make sure no complications arose or anything was wrong. Which myself and Ali were perfectly happy with, we wanted to make sure our baby was safe and healthy. Having more scans would ease our new parent worries too.

We were beyond thrilled to be having a baby together we'd always talked about it more over the past year or so before any of my tests happened. We'd kinda put having a baby on the back burner as there was alot that went into ivf and we needed to meticulously plan for it but with me being in the middle of the race season, as well as braking my arm and missing a few races around that time we just didn't have the time.

But when we found out Ali was pregnant naturally,  we didn't need to worry about ivf or the cost it involved anymore. We could conceive like a normal loving couple.

With this new found knowledge that we could conceive naturally, it ment we had to be carful and safe from this point on. Well not exactly, she was already pregnant so until the baby was born we could be a little carless in the bedroom. 

We were beyond happy to find out we could conceive after all that time. It could mean more children in the future. We were starting our lives together and nothing else mattered to us but our baby. We were building our family. And we couldn't wait.

Published 16.10.18