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I stretch my sore muscles when the birds begin to sing outside my window and the sun sheds light into the room . I open my eyes and I feel the light bite at my eyes .
I do my routine  hygiene and I put on a white jumpsuit and with a yellowish long sleeve blouse. 
I go downstairs and I grab an apple and I take my bag with my cellphone and I walk out of the house . I'm going out with Stefanie . She thinks I need to "get out " or my depression will consume me since she hasn't seen me for the past two weeks . I told her  I wasn't depressed I was simply picking up the shattered pieces of a mirror .
She suggest we go to a restaurant and then we can go to her house later for a sleep over and watch movies .
As I walk down the street cars are rushing again and almost instantly its like nothings changed. But of course nothing has changed ,the sun still rises and sets ,the starts still blink shimmers of silver over us and time ...time waits for no man . But for me everything's changed ,its changed beyond comparison and no matter what ,no matter how I wish to turn back the hands of time it will never so now I walk forward because that's the only way I can go .

"Get in the car will you ", Stefanie says to me and her mom stops the car beside me on the road . I didn't even notice her coming but none the less I don't argue I just put my bag inside and slip inside the car .

" You see even you skin is loving the feel of the sun its glowing !",she adds .

I just smile at her silliness .

"Hello Rosalia ,dear ,how are you ?" ,Audrey (Stefanie's mother ) asks .

"Still holding up and you "

"Good ,dear.  Stefanie told me about getting you out of the house . I  couldn't agree more.  It will be very good for you "

"Thank you . "

We spend the rest of the ride in silence and a couple of conversations here and there that end up dying away later on .
When we get to the restaurant Audrey drops us off and she heads to the spa .

"Okay , I'm getting a milkshake . What do you want Rose ?",Stefanie asks

" I'll have the same ",I tell the waiter.

When she comes back Stefanie takes a long sip before saying ," Oh ,who was that chick I saw you hugging at you dad's funeral ?".

I chock on my milkshake grabbing a napkin so I don't spill all over myself .
"What?", I ask innocently .

" You know the browned hair ,green eyes ,skinny girl . I think she goes to our school but I'm not sure . She hugged you ",she repeats but I wonder if she doesn't notice that the reaction is because I'm quiet shocked but anyway I try and maintain a level of calmness.

" Oh ,her, she's a old friend . ",I begin .

'Old friend indeed ', a voice at the back of my mind says .

" She just came to say she was sorry for my loss "

Oh yeah and she poured out her heart to me ,it was beautiful

She doesn't seem overly convinced so I add ," Her mom is a friend of my mom so she came with her to the funeral . Anyways why are you asking "

"Nothing really ,its just I wanted to see you but I didn't want to intrude because I get you were hurting and all " ,she says but I know she's lying . Her eyes are all over the place ,her body is slouched and she's fidgeting with everything around her . But I won't say anything .

"Anyway ,how are things with Jeffrey ?"

"I don't know . He says we shouldn't ruin what we have by giving it a title ."

I know someone who wants to give you a title  ,my inner voice whispers and I almost smile but I refrain.

"So you're dating ?", I question

She shrugs.

" I don't think he's serious about you ,be careful around him ",is all I say and then she just nods .

After having our meals we take walk around the mall taking pictures  and doing a little shopping .

" Let's go get some ice cream and popcorn and snacks for tonight ",Stefanie suggested .

When we got to the store it was a bit busy .

" Okay I think if we split we'll get things done quicker . ",I said grabbing the list in her hand and tearing it in half  , " We should be done in the next ten to twenty minutes . If you're done first just call me ,cool ?"

She nods and we start shopping .

I check my half of the list ;'Chocolates, marshmallows,gum, popcorn, butter, honey ,muffin mix, ice cream ,oats ,milk and bananas '
I don't even know where we're taking all this food ...

I go down the dairy aisle and begin searching for the milk first .
As I stand there trying to decide whether to take full cream or low fate a guy passes by dropping the  cheese that he thought he dropped into the basket .

"Excuse me !", I yell behind him holding up the cheese ," You dropped your  cheese ".

He stops and turns to face me ," the cheese ",I repeat . He looks into his basket first and then back at me .
" Thank you ",he says taking the cheese from me .

" I thought I put it in ",he says and I nod walking back to my milky lane .
" Wait !",he calls out .

I turn around and he's in front of me again. "My name is Wesley Dickinson and might I ask what your name is ?"
I raise my eyebrow at him . "My name is Trisha William ", I lie .

" I was wondering if I could properly thank you by perhaps taking you out to lunch ",he say.

Hahaha very funny ,you're joking right !

" No need really ,it was just cheese . You would have noticed at some point and went back to get it "

"But you saved me the trouble so please do me this honour "

"Rosalia ,are you  done?", Stefanie says coming from nowhere ," are you okay Rose. You're not answering your phone so I came to check on you "

Someone kill this girl ....

"Yes ,I'm functioning very well ,you can go pay I'm right behind you ", I try getting her away .

" Oh but aren't you going to introduce me to your friend.  ",she pushes .

Whose friend!!!!

I sigh in defeat and I give in .

"I'm Wesley ", he says introducing himself .

" I'm Stefanie ,how do you know Rosalia ?"she asks being nosey .

"Oh she just helped me out but she won't let me thank  her properly with lunch "

"Oh come on Rose ", she says at me and I roll my eyes , "I'll give you her numbers and you can call her ",she adds and my eyes go wide with shock

" Oh you just helped me a lot ",he says to Stefanie and I begin to fantasize about how I'm going to murder this girl slowly ....