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"What are you doing ?", I said with a shaky voice and tears falling .

She kept looking at me as she too continued to cry although I didn't know why . I couldn't tell if it was because I'd caught her or if it was because of her cuts .

" What are you doing here?",she asked me ,her voice stern almost as if to scare me .But I wasn't having it

"That doesn't fucken answer my question ,Haley . What the hell are you doing?"

She didn't say anything to my outburst so I grabbed the towel that hung near the sink and I got on my knees and started wrapping it around her slim lower arm.

"Come on ", I said helping her to her feet and walking her to the bedroom and I sat her on the bed .

I walked back into the bathroom being careful not yo step on the blood so I don't mess the floor and carpet .
I looked through the semi transparent glass drawer beneath the sink as i looked for the first aid kit.
After I search continuously I break the eerie silence and I talk through the brick heavy tension that has built between us .

" Where is the first aid kit ?",I call out .

"Bottom drawer ,last one on the right . Its at the back "

I retrieve the white box about the size of an average shoe box .
I place it on the bed and I begin by  removing the towel and then I start cleaning it .

She flinches but I don't stop .

When  I finish applying the antibiotic cream and some gauze ,I feel her eyes fixed on my every move .

"Why did you it ?" , I ask casually in a calm voice

She doesn't say anything but just stares down her hands

"Come on . Come on .",I begin and my  tears begin to pool in my eyes .
" You could at least tell me as someone who cares about you, Haley !"

"I don't know!  Comfort maybe ", she blurts out.

" Comfort? I'm your girlfriend and you don't think I can ever comfort you . You didn't even tell me something was bothering you ,you just ...you just .",I was crying and my voice was breaking .
"I don't think you know what this does to me . And you clearly don't don't care "

I got up and began grabbing my stuff and I was about to leave . The anger the boiled inside my veins scared me but even now as she refused to at least tell me why she'd done such a thing my heart yearned for her and the only thing I wanted was to lay in her arms even though they bear scars and identities I have never knew . So I was leaving just so i could find a way to make my heart calm before I couldn't stop it .

"Wait. ", she says as my hand reaches for the door knob and my body turned towards the door ,I was ready to leave but she stopped me ." Don't leave ,please ",she pleaded .

I lost control of my emotions . They seemed scattered and picking up the pieces was just weighing me down .
I turned around with tears running down my face as she began to stalk toward me with heavy steps ,a heavy heart and even through my tears I could see her tears beginning to pool in her beautiful green eyes .

" Don't go",she said but it was only a whisper and it was enough to light up a flame with my heart ,enough to stop my heart with pain because of the weight in those words ,enough to make me fall in love with her again and again.

"Please just stay", she continued whispering and as she stood in front of me I didn't know if I should touch or not .
But I didn't have to make that decision because she put her hand on me and her lips kissed mine with her tears falling and when my hand wrapped around her I was never going to let her go .

" Stay ",she whispered taking deep breaths after breaking the kiss .

I looked into her tearful eyes .
The colour itself was enough to keep glued to them forever . The tears in her eyes didn't belong there and the beauty that rests on her face couldn't be described, not even through poetry. Her lips were simply a divine piece to masterpiece that I couldn't get enough of . I couldn't walk away from this.  I couldn't walk away from the bubbly personality that bloomed like flowers on spring and that heart... That heart was a amazing a rose itself . Beautiful and kind but also ready to protect itself. I stared into the windows of her soul and I saw how shattered she seemed at this moment. Right now I know that we were the greatest taboo but an even greater taboo is seeing the tears in the eyes of the one love .

All she needed to know was that I was never going to leave her ..