.Not Just An Android.

-9-

Y/N's pov:

<I found myself more time then not staring at the lighter coloured part of my face and green eyes.

<I was more than happy with them don't get me wrong....

<but I didn't get why Hanna helped me.

<I could have been sent back to the manufacturer, reset and repaired.... my code would have been repaired.

<I felt strange at the idea of being reset.

<self-scan
<uncertain
<unwilling
<distant
<unwanting

<why are all these things here at the same time?! I don't understand!

<I focused back on my task and went back to cleaning the library.

<I stopped in front of the computer.... only the screen was turned off not the rest.

<I put the books I was holding on the table and turned on the screen and took the mouse in my hand, planning to turn it off safely.

<but then what I came upon.... deviants?

<scrolled the pages while I read.

<I put my hand against the screen and crashed the systems in it before leaving the room.

<self-scan
<doubt
<anger
<unsettled
<confused
<irritated

Hanna's pov:

I was laying on my bed and reading a book about magical story things when I heard my door open and close.

"I'm done" I looked over the book with a raised eyebrow at her tone and expression on her face.

"okay stand by the door"

"right"

I went back to reading in silence until it was broken again.

"what's your plan with me?"

I looked up again, closing the book while folding one of its pages a book mark, I don't like doing that but I had no other choice right now.

"what are you insinuating with that question?"

"I've seen the computer in the library.... you will send me back.... you think I'm a deviant"

fuck I forgot to go back and close the session and completely turn it off.

"I'm not going to"

"liar!" I almost jumped back at her yelling. "I know how humans think! you want others to trust you before backstabbing them!"

to say I had nothing to say would be the understatement of the century because I was surprised and because she was right, what could I do? try to lie to a machine? she would instantly guess the lie.

"I am right aren't I? this is why my coding glitches out.... this is why there are these.... these thoughts.... this is why there are these.... these feelings.... I've never asked for this"

what can I say? what? there is nothing to say here....

"I'm one aren't I?!"

"yes!" I finally yelled back, silence fell between us. "yes.... all signs show deviancy is present in you"

"you can't send me back! I don't want to be destroyed!"

god I get what it meant dealing with a deviant was hard and might get dangerous.... they are simply unpredictable.

"I will not se--" "liar!" she cut me off.... with actual tears.... or what would be called tears but is just an imitation with androids.... rolling down her face.

"humans don't care for us! we are machines after all! but why don't I feel like a machine?! why do my self-scans show so many emotions at once? why is pain such an uncomfortable feeling? why is fear such a..... a tiring feeling? why are there so many contradictions in my systems? I'm just lost.... I don't want to be deviant.... I don't want these feelings.... they're...... they're......"

I grabbed her head with both of my hands and placed my finger over the red LED, she knew what it did if I pressed it so she didn't move.

"if you don't want to.... we'll send you to be reset, your programming will be fine after that but your database will be wiped clean okay? no destruction just a little reset"

"I don't want to forget! I don't want to be reset! but I don't want these feelings!"

"it's either this or that"

"you didn't answer me.... you will send me to be destroyed because I'm deviant?"

"I don't know how I feel this whole deviant thing but you behave way to human to me to do that without feeling the guilt of my actions"

"I..... I-I don't know what to do.... I'm not what I'm supposed to be.... I'm not a machine.... I'm not a human.... I don't know how to deal with being a deviant.... I don't want any of this...... yet I'm s..... scared to lose it all"

"hey hey hey calm down okay" I wiped off the tears with my hand that didn't have the finger over the LED, at least it was yellow now but I needed to be ready for any eventuality still.... a deviant is hard to deal with. "I won't send you back.... okay? calm down a little.... no one here will hurt you...... why would I have taken my time to repair you then? I had suspicions even before then, small but still, that something was up.... no.... I knew something was up when I saw you at the police stations.... I could have sent you away then.... I didn't then so I won't now"

"y.... you promise?"

"I promise...... I'll see how I can help you with these things you wished you didn't have.... I grew up with them since I'm human.... I'll help you, now lay on the couch" she did as I kept my hand where it was, kneeing next to the couch.

"I will turn you off to give your systems time to cool off a little and you'll be calm when rebooted.... I promise nothing will happen" I added seeing her worried face.

"okay...." she closed her eyes. "I trust you"

I pressed on the LED just like I did to turn her on manually, I shut her down manually.

I slowly took my hand away from her face, passing my fingers on her cheek and over her hair silently and gently as if she was still on and functional and not shut down, it was almost like she was sleeping.

how can she trust me? how does she know I didn't just trick her to send her back to her manufacturer?

I passed a finger on the turned off LED before going back to her hair before standing up and walking to my own bed, climbing on to it and letting myself fall on it, exhausted from the stressful situation.

I laid there and sighed, glancing at Y/N on the couch.... she really looked as if she was just peacefully sleeping and looked human since the LED was on the other side of her head.

I just stared.... I've never thought of an android or looked at an android like this.... I've never seen them as humans.... but it's a deviant we are talking about here, about Y/N.....

I laid back down with another sigh and closed my eyes.

"g..... good night Y/N" I whispered to the silence of my room.