.Not Just An Android.

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Hanna's pov:

Y/N was back to 'normal' though it still felt strange for me to see her put her jacket on with the word android on it and seeing her wipe the paint of her face revealing the lighter skin patch and the LED underneath it.... I might have almost forgotten she wasn't a human.

I had given her my tablet for now telling her to look up songs since she didn't even know what type of music there was or even what music was.

I've been doing my stuff here and there, talking with my brother on the phone.... the brother who was barely home and talking about the rules he needs to follow.... we didn't get along.... I caught him stealing dad's money once and since he has an android at his commands I couldn't stop him.... now that I think about it.... that android.... it was male yes but it was an RK1000 model and really similar to Y/N in the way of him being able to hurt me despite other androids no.

I looked over my shoulder at her for I don't know how many time now.

"jeez" I pulled the earphones off her ears. "I've seen you listen to the same song for a long time now.... let me see" I took the tablet and put the earphones on before clicking replay.

to say I was surprised was an understatement.... the lyrics.... they are scarily real for Y/N or any deviant out there.... it was way too close to reality to not make a cold shiver run down my back unconsciously.

I hung the earphones around my neck and looked up at Y/N who was looking away from me.

"and all the people say" she hummed. "you can't wake up; this is not a dream.... you're part of a machine, you are not a human being.... with your face all made up, living on a screen.... low on self-esteem, so you run on gasoline.... I think there's a flaw in my code.... these voices won't leave me alone...." I just stood there.

"Y/N..... is there something you want to tell me?"

"I told you yesterday I was fine with being the android I was programmed to be, that I was fine with that freedom.... yet.... yet I don't feel free... I don't know what but I feel like there is something missing"

I sat down next her on the couch, setting the tablet and earphones on the table.

"how are you feeling?"

"I don't know"

"I mean what yourself scan shows you"

"..... lost, confused, empty, bored, neutral and accepting"

"well lost here might mean you haven't found your place, like you don't know what your purpose is and it's surely not cleaning my room or doing the dishes.... confused most likely because of all those feelings at the same time and you don't know what to do of them and how to deal with them since you don't understand them.... empty because of the lost, you feel like something is missing, something in addition you need to find.... bored well that's because you are.... bored.... and accepting? you accept the fact that you can't change anything on your case.... you shouldn't, you need to find what's missing, then it will be alright" I tried and I repeat I. tried. to sort of analyse why she felt like that for her.

".... and can you tell me why you don't like androids? you always evade the question.... it brings out failure, mistrust and annoyance"

"failure because you didn't get the answer you were searching for.... mistrust because you think I'm hiding something important about you and annoyance because it's bothersome to you"

"you see? you don't answer my question" I tried backing away as she got closer and in my attempt to flee we ended up like in those movies that are filled to the brim with clichés and sprinkled with more clichés...... but it still made me turn bright red while silently yelling in my head for help.

I was laying on the couch with her above me, trapping me with no escape route, she was not disturbed at all since she had no idea what this meant to humans that watched shitty romance movies even if they are shit just because they are bored and I'm the fucking person that does exactly that!!!!

"tell me why. it could maybe help you"

"get off me already!" I said pushing her away as I sat up on the other side of the couch with a red face as she stayed where I pushed her too.... the other corner of the couch, the furthest from me as I tried to make my red face go away, no idea why it is even there and why am I so embarrassed?!?!

"telling you won't help" I said looking at her.

"maybe it won't, maybe it will, you are a human, not a programming"

"did you rime on purpose?"

"maybe"

"jeez...... fine I'll tell you if it stops you from asking questions.... so to start you know how old I am?"

"you are 18, born on the 24th of February in the year 2035 at 1 hour 39 minutes and 2 seconds in the morning" I looked at her weirdly.

"gosh you really know how old I am exactly"

"yes you are 18 years old, will be 19 in 4 months plus 5 days, 19 hours, 12 minutes and 37 seconds"

"stop you are creeping me out right now" I was looking at her with wide worried and creeped out eyes.

"my pardon.... so tell me"

"right...." I was a bit weary because she knew a lot even for an android but I remember that she said her programming is at the level of a human brain so I guess it's possible. "so 8 years ago-" "exactly to the second?"

"don't cut in if you really actually want to know!"

"my pardon"

"tsk.... so.... 8 years ago.... all the family went out shopping, it was a sunny day, day left with brother to go buy their boy stuff while I stayed with my mother to buy the dresses I remember hating so much, we had two androids with us, a TK200 model and a AX400.... I actually liked the AX400 but she broke down a while after that day and we swapped her in for Felix.... so the TK200 whom we owned was named Joshua and I remember for some reason I liked calling him Josef.... don't ask I was a weird kid at 10 okay? so we did shopping and all and decided to wait outside in the park for my dad and brother.... I don't remember what happened exactly, I mean I do but what lead up to the accident? no.... I remember going in the pack and then, as if the next second.... there is that group of hateful men that decide to fucking try to shoot up the place! you hear me?! that place was filled with kids! kids! I hate androids because since Joshua's scan of my mother and I showed him I had a better percentage of getting old and such.... he ran away with me and left my mother.... I just know she could have been saved if he would have listened to me.... he just didn't understand.... no android ever does.... it's just a human thing you know? to try to save both because both would have survived"

"and what happened to that android?"

"destroyed, dad most likely had the same thinking pattern as I did and sent him away since his job was like yours, to keep us safe, that way instead of two for four people today with have three for three so that we have an android looking out just for us and won't have the same happen ever again"

"I'm sor--" "shut up.... shut up please" I didn't want to talk now that the memories where back, it was fine, I was fine thinking of them but saying them out loud was different.... really different.

"alright Hanna" she stood up. "I'll go in standby nod for the night, good night" I didn't look as her to know she was standing by the door with her arms behind her back and all.

it felt strange to tell all this to an android.... yet relieving since the android was deviant and deviants are closer the humans then other androids.... I don't know how to feel.... I need some time to think....