.Not Just An Android.

-28-

Hanna's pov:

we were out of the containers for some times now and right now we were sitting in a restaurant to prepare our next move while Julie and I got to eat something.

"we'll stay in the hotel tonight, it's far safer than anything at this point in time since we don't have this part of the town mapped out" Y/N mostly was talking to herself but neither of us contradicted her in her ideas, it had been days since we slept in real beds.

I mostly zoned out, think about how this all started, how this all came to be, in a year and more, how my life was turned from left to right and upside down before being twisted.... it was just like a..... like a dream if you think back, as if nothing of this was real, everything going so fast, everything playing out before my eyes and yet I had a hard time really grasping what was going on, never given enough time to think deeply before those days in the container, I had given up everything, to run away with someone that is my best friend, someone I hated and someone that was a human before and helped create all of this.... what will happen to us 4? I just don't know anymore.... I just want to leave this country and live a peaceful life I truly love.... it just seems too far away....

"Hanna.... we'll be going" I shook my head and looked up at Y/N before taking the hand she held out to me, toning out yet again what she started saying to the others as we left.

I hated her so much at the start, thinking she's just another one of those androids, how far I was from the truth can't be measured and can never be, I owe her so much both physically and on an emotional level. I never had noticed how much I missed a friendly yet loving touch since I lost my mother even if it's not that kind of love, it already brought a smile to my face to have her hold my hand.... I had become so cold and I've known that, closed minded, I couldn't help but hate her for being an android at my command and yet I couldn't help but get worried when she didn't answer me back in the police station, with all that blood on the side of her face with parts of her skin broken off.... I had grown to like her despite not wanting to.... her showing feelings didn't help at all at first but look at us now, I wouldn't go back to change anything.

"Hanna, are you alright? you keep spacing out" I blinked a little.

"I-I'm fine jeez stop worrying always" she had a look like she would have sighed if she could have done such things.

"Hanna even if I'm not technically bound by normal strict coding, you know what I am but even when I was a mindless, thoughtless, senseless android I had one task only that I would always put above anything else, because of said task I got to see on my own what being.... a human would be like with these emotions and liberty of thoughts, though I will gladly follow certain aspects of my programming and that certain task that started all of this is in the middle of it.... my task is to keep you safe even if I die doing so and I'll gladly die knowing you'd get to live another day....... oh there don't cry you'll make me cry too.... come on let's go to our room" she chuckled a little while hugging me and easily picking me up when I didn't move to go and insisted on keeping hugging her.

"I don't want to lose you Y/N, I don't want another person I care about to be lost because of me"

"trust me I don't want to either but neither of us know of the future and what happens will happen, we can only pray for the best....... and that I did the right choice"

"the right choice?" I was a bit confused.

"when I was trapped in that building, with you guys at the containers....... I came upon a room filled with a super computer.... I felt it was important, laying my hand against it proved me that much.... I..... I heard people, so many people, consciousness of androids being created for future use, consciousness of deviants having their codes reprogrammed before returned to their bodies after a reset.... I was in front of the biggest super computer being able to create android minds and the only one that size, that's why this country is the number one androids creating country in the world, no one is able to create something on such a big scale as us.... I knew I could have fucked up its internal system, making it forever impossible to use, it would have made it impossible for humans to create more slaves...... but it would also most likely mean the end of androids as a whole, like if no more minds are created, no more parts are needed to be made and the models with defective pieces will slowly die off until only the small scale android building facilities remained, unable to keep up.... I would have turned it off even then, knowing it would have been for the better of my kind.... but I..... I-I..... I heard the start of something, a new programming, a weak little string of code being created.... a sort of.... baby.... I was simply unable to take the possibility of life from it, it was just 10 to 20 fleeting pieces of code here and there but I just couldn't........ I feel like I did an error by letting that machine continue to work.... I should have turned it off"

"Y/N.... even as a human you felt such guilt and sadness for the androids.... now that you are one, it's normal you feel more like that, it's as if you asked a human to pull the plug from.... from a machine that helps to make a baby breath being told it would be better.... most would be unable.... I know it's a harsh example but it's the same case you had to face with that forming android mind.... humans are monsters in a way but only the worst of the worst would feel nothing for doing such a thing.... that is the past now and we can't change it so stop thinking of that because it's now unchangeable"

"jeez I feel as if we were on a TV show" she chuckled and I did to before she dropped me, I was about to yell at her when I saw I landed on a bed.

"you should pay attention Hanna; I might be dazzling but I can't always be in the centre of your attention even if wished I could" she said with a smile as I stuck out my tongue like a little kid.

"dazzling my ass" I muttered.

"come on grumpy let's sleep" she sat down on the bed and laid down, pulling me to her.

"don't call me grumpy"

"okay okay.... I love you"

"I do too"

"good night"

"night"

"grumpy"

"Y/N!!!!!!!!!"