Dream // David Dobrik

{Under My Skin}

I never expected you to get under my skin,
but now your name runs through my veins
and I can't help but let every part of you in.

David's pov

We laid there for a while. Her head nuzzled up to my neck causing goose bumps to cover my body. I told her that we shouldn't kiss, and we should see where this goes, but I want nothing more than her lips on mine. I kept telling myself I couldn't fall for her, yet here I am.
I ran my fingers across her back, drawing circles and shapes. She snuggled closer to me and sighed. I wanted to tell her I loved her a hundred times, but I couldn't. We are too messy, too broken, I was too sad.
She took my hand and started playing with the green bracelet I had on my wrist.
"What are you doing?" I laughed
She smiled and shrugged her shoulders. She then proceeded to slip the bracelet off my wrist and put it on her own.
"How long have you had this?" She asked playing with it on her own wrist.
"Forever." I joked
She twirled the bracelet in her fingers.
"Can I have it back." I chuckled.
"Nope." She responded
I tried to quickly grab it out of her hands. She pulled her hands away so I couldn't get it back.
"Come on." I laughed
I swiftly sat up and got on top of her. I pined her arms down playfully.
"Gimme my bracelet." I smiled fighting for the bracelet with my fingers.
"No." She retorted fighting to be free from my grip.
I finally got the bracelet out of her hands
and back on to my wrist.
"I win." I smirked still pinning her down.
I looked at her longingly. I wanted to kiss her. I needed to kiss her. She was like nicotine.
I leaned down, wanting her lips to meet mine, but she turned her head. I leaned back, still on top of her.
"You said you wanted to hold off on that stuff." She explained
"Sorry." I said keeping my answers short and bottling up my feelings.
I laid back down beside her. She turned and clung to my side. I didn't touch her in fear of upsetting her.
"Cuddle me...bitch." She joked
She got a laugh out of me but I was still too stubborn to cuddle her even know I adore cuddles.
"Daviiiid." She whined
I loved when she said my name. She said everything perfectly.
"Ugh." I complained wrapping my arms around her small body.
She started kissing my neck a little bit. It wasn't anything too intense, she just started peppering kisses on me causing my heart to jump. I was so confused. She fucked with my head like no other. I pulled away a bit.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
She pulled away from my neck and just looked at me longingly.
"I want to kiss you. But I know we shouldn't." She said
"Do it." I said
She hesitated.
"You don't have to." I soothed
Her lips slowly met mine. The only thing in mind my was me telling myself that we shouldn't be kissing, that this was wrong, that this is destroying our friendship. But at the same time we needed this. Every piece of me needed this to happen. And in this moment I realized, I could never love someone like I loved her. If she stepped out of my life there is no way I could feel the same feelings for someone else.
She broke the kiss and just looked into my eyes. She looked as if her entire soul was pouring out of her gaze. When she looked at me I felt nothing but love. She leaned in and kissed the bridge of my nose causing my cheeks to flush scarlet. She then proceeded to lay her head on my shoulder.
"I'm ready to go to the guys house." She said
I sat up and rubbed my face with my hands. I had a million things wrapped around my mind, and it made my head hurt. Worst of all it made my heart break.
"What's wrong?" She said sitting up and putting her hand on my cheek.
"Headache." I lied.
I stood up and got off the bed.
"Let's go see the guys." I said faking a smile.
She looked at me, she knew my smile was fake.
To her I was transparent, and to me she was clear.
She got off the bed and walked to the door. She opened it and we were off to the parking lot. The lack of conversation in the air was bitter and cold. Her not speaking left a bad taste in my mouth, I felt like I had to say something to fire up any conversation.
"What are you thinking about" I asked shoving my hands in the pockets of my jeans.
"Love." She said facing forward.
"Aren't we all?" I tried to laugh.
Like I said previously, she was clear to me and it was clear that she was unhappy.
"Goddamnit Ava, what'd I do?" I asked frustrated and confused.
She shrugged.
I was livid. I needed answers. My head was fucked with too much to play anymore games.
I stopped in my tracks.
"You know what? I've tried my fucking hardest to fix it. I've tried so fucking hard. And now you wanna treat me like this? You tell me you 'just wanna be friends' and then you fuck me? You're the one making this harder than it has to be. I've tried everything!" I ranted.
"You don't think I've tried?! I tried to be your girlfriend, you didn't like that. I tried to just be friends, you didn't like that. I tried to cut you off, you didn't like that. So what am I suppose to do? We can't stay like this forever." She said
I broke eye contact and stared at the ground. I didn't know what to say anymore.
She sighed.
I looked back up at her.
"I want you to be my girlfriend, but healing takes time." I said putting my hand on her shoulder.
She hugged me and I hugged her back. We started walking to the car again. This time the silence was comforting.

We got to the car and got in. I started driving toward the guys house. I tried so hard to do nothing but focus on the road. Over the years that I've had heart break, I was always desperately trying to find any way to numb my mind.
"Do you wanna just stop?" She asked.
"Stop what?" I asked
"Stop trying so hard. I don't have to be a member of your little group. I have my own channel and I'll make other friends. We should just let go. We clearly weren't meant to be, even though I do like you a lot. After today I think we should go our separate ways." I said
"Absolutely not." I responded quickly
She held her face in her hands.
"David I don't know how to fix this anymore." She said
"We will figure it out, running away never works."
"Moving on will." She retorted coldly.
"But I don't want to." I said with a lump in my throat.
I stayed quiet and held back the pain I felt. What hurts the most is longing for someone who doesn't long for you.
"Ava, I-I love you." I spat out
We had never shared an I love you.
She looked at me shocked. She had never heard me say such a strong word.
"I really fucking do." I said "and I don't say that to a lot of people."
"I love you too."
I've been wanting to hear that come out of her mouth for so long. But I didn't smile. I couldn't smile. I just stayed quiet and silently love her with every piece of me.
We arrived at the house and got out of the car. I opened the door for Ava. We both walked in and saw Zane editing.
He looked up at the both of us.
"Hey look it's besties Ava and David, you know what David I'm starting to think you are replacing me with this bitch." Zane said
Ava and I both laughed. I sat down on the red couch and Ava sat with me.
"I heard you guys ended up not working out huh?" Zane asked
"Yeah." Ava said
"Ava now that you're single do you wanna date me by chance?" Zane said obviously joking.
"You would be a MAJOR down grade." I said with a laugh.
"More like upgrade." Ava joked under her breath
"Shut up." I laughed. I pushed Ava playfully and crossed my arms.
"I'm just kidding." She said wrapping her arms around me.
I smiled and Zane laughed.
Jason opened is bedroom door and peeked his head out.
"David can I talk to you in here real quick." He said
Jason was never this serious so I obviously thought this was a prank or something.
"What are you about to do?" I asked laughing a little.
"I'm serious David." He said slightly angered.
I laughed and stood up. I walked toward his door and entered his room. He closed the door behind us.
"What's up?" I asked
"You really need to get your shit together." He said
"What do you mean?" I asked
"You're miserable when you're single and I can tell your not happy. What's wrong?" He asked
I thought for a moment
"I'm fine-"
"You really do love her." He cut me off
"Yeah so?" I retorted
"Then be with her. Don't hesitate, don't fuck around. Just love her, because she really loves you." He explained
I hated getting advice on my love life.
I opened the door and sat back down on the red couch next to Ava. I put my arm around her and pulled her close to me.
"Okay you guys are worse than Jason and Trish." Scott laughed as he entered the room and sat next to Zane.
"What do you mean?" Ava chuckled
"First you're together then you're not and now you're all cuddly." Scott said
"We're just cool about the break up. We're still buddies." I said hugging Ava tightly.
My phone buzzed but I ignored it.
"Who's texting you?" Zane asked
I shrugged. I didn't really care who was texting me. I was with Ava and my friends and that's all that mattered to me.
It buzzed again.
"Your phone is blowing up baby." Zane laughed
"Ava come be in my vlog!" Scott said holding up a camera.
"Okay." She responded standing up and walking over to Scott.
I picked up my phone and looked at who was texting me.
Liza: let's talk.
Liza: I'm sorry.

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